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StAtuS:♥HAPPILY ATTACHED♥
mEmOrAbLe+sPeciAL dAy:[[♥140607♥]] =)
firSt sChoOL: Ikoma Language SchooL [part-tym]
sEcoNd sChooL: rEpubLiC poLytEchNiC [fuLL-tyM]=>>SAS
aGe: sEvEntEeN [2007]
biRtHdAy: 06.03.90 [pisces]
[[My Adores]]
==>c0L0uRs: *bLaCk_PiNk_*0rAnGe_*whiTe
==>PaStYm: cHaTtiNg_sMs_ListEniNg tO muSic_hAng 0Ut witH wHoEvEr eSp my bOyfRiEnd_rEaD maLaY noVeLs
==>L0vEs: ♥HIM♥,mAkiNg fRieNdz,bEinG mYseLf, to diStUrB PeopLe, SP0RTS CARS!!
==>AdmiRinG: mY BoyfRiEnd!! mY fAmiLy!! mY frIendS!! eVeryOnE AroUnd mE!! tHose WhO kNows Me ArE LoveD!!=)
[[My Detests]]
~GUYS WHO TOY WITH GIRLS FEELINGS!!
~PeOple wHo tHinK tHey ARe ALwAyS riGht
~uNrEaS0nAbLe peOpLe
~PeSt
~iRriTaTe mE uNnEcEsSaRiLy
~sM0KeRs - dEpEndS
~bAcKsTaBbErS
~LiArs
~sTuBb0rN PeoPLe - dEpEnDs
~tHe peRsoN wHo hAvE hUrT my FeeLinGs **dEpEndS 0n my m0od bAsicaLLy**
guez wad??4 0nce i REGRET studying n sacrifising 4 da past 4yrs..g0sh!!it reLi hurtz a L0t man!!Lyf iz s0o UNFAIR & CRUEL!!I might hv neva th0t dat diz iz da 0utc0me...fine!!4 dh0se whu hv been asking n w0ndering where i'm p0sted 2...FINE!!I'M UNPOSTED!!happy nw??!!iz dat wad u guyz wan 2 n0e abt??!!great ryte??!!i'm simpLy pissed 0ff!!evritym wen i tink 0f my O's...i 0waes Link 2 my stupidity and 0s0 hym!!bc0z 0f hym diz iz da 0utc0me..g0sh!!iz diz wadz fate 4 my Lyf??!!sinz y0ung,my 0ni resp0nsibiLity iz 2 Let my parents n famiLy b p0rud 0f me as da Last chiLd,bt diz iz wad i gt??!!!evasinz da p0sting,my parents seem 2 s0o L0w....i cried non-st0p evritym i tink 0f dat..bt diz iz UNEXPECTED!!i'm s0o s0rie m0m..s0rie dad....iz 0ready dreadfuL 4 me 0ready...da th0t 0f hving 2 enj0y myseLF 4 my bdae seem 2 be drifting apart...seem 2 makes me L0se h0pe n evriting....ape hikmah smue nie??!!s0o wad if i gt such a pt 4 my O's wen i din gt 2 aniwhere??!!do u noe hw devastated i m??!!my m0m saw me crying ytd bt she jz cudn't sae aniting...i evn raise my v0ice c0z i was c0mpLeteLy pissed 0ff!!dey jz cudn't d0 aniting..i went 4 an appeaL jz nw....bt true enuf....i cn't g0 aniwhere...0ni 0ptions,RP...g0sh!!my hart iz reLi in pain...i din eat much diz few daes wad m0re ytd...i oni sLpt 4 a few hrs 4 2 daes 0ready..if diz g0es 0n,in any tym i cud jz c0LLapsed shey...seriousLy..i've neva been in diz kind 0f state b4...weLL HEY!!iz my future u noe!!i noe ITE iz nt da end 0f da werLd yet..thx 2 dh0se u hv given me ur views...bt seriousLy...4me...gg 2 ITE wud mean dat i've wasted my studies in sec sch...dh0se hard werk...dh0se sacrifices...pLz La...i jz cudn't see my future nw...i've COMPLETELY LOSE HOPE...iqah,thx 4 aLL dat werds...bt be in my pLace iqah....wif my kind 0f famiLy....da disapp0intment iz GREATER....i jz cudn't find which step dat i've taken in da wr0ng step....i reLi dunnoe....4 nw i jz wish my parents 2 scoLd me n evriting...bt dey din....dey jz hide deir disapp0intment n pretend dat noting iz wr0ng...dey prefer me 2 ch0ose my 0wn future....i noe iz 4 my 0wn gd....dey wud jz agree 2 aniting dat i'm ch0osing...evn ITE...bt i noe if ITE iz my ch0ice, iz a great disapp0intment...iz nt wad u tink it iz...iz w0rse den wadz in ur tinking...btw,i wud Lyk 2 sae thx 2 raudha,shuhadah n wani 4 make such a trip...s0o s0rie c0z i made u guyz 4Low me tiLL bishan...reLi am...bt great enuf u guyz r dere...=)m0st imp0rtantLy iz Iqah...thx ya 4 ur heLp...=)dun w0rie much 0n ur p0sting..jz try 0ut La...iz a gd benefit La dat c0urse...dpt pahala ape toLong 0rg kn??if i dun hv dat kind 0f disadv as u noe ryte iqah??i wud hv appLied dat c0urse...bt i jz cn't...i'm nt str0ng enuf...i've appLied 2 MI...n den i've applied 2 poLy...b0th i've appLied wif a heavy hart...b0th r not wad i wan...i reLi hv 2 g0 ITE La sinz i hv n0 0tha ch0ice...bt it reLi breaks my hart...bt den aL0t 0f my peeps r either gg 2 poLy n either retaking deir O's...i'm stiLL tinking... i hv anudder dae 2 rec0nsider evriting..i cn't b s0o bad 2 reLi appLy 4 aLL 3 n den jz as i Lyk,2 reject dem ryte??dat's s0o bad...i regret it..bt if oni i make my mind set cLear 0f gg ITE,it wud b simpLe...bt h0nestLy thru0ut my sec sch Lyf,i've neva evn th0t 0f gg ITE..my dream was 2 g0 JC....dat's my dream...nw u noe y i'm L0sing h0pe??y i'm devastated??try La...try 2 b in my pLace..my dream was 2 g0 JC,n end up in ITE..isn't dat bad??poLy 0s0 iz quite 0ryte...g0sh..i dun wish 2 g0 0n..i've reveaLed 2 much 0f wad i pLan 2 kip it as a secret ekceLi...if i g0 0n Lyk diz,iz 0bvi0us dat iz a great pain i'm hving...i cn jz coLLapsed anitym,..tiLL here den...tc peeps...love ya....muackkzz...=))
i jz hv 1 wish........ "i jz wanna Lead a happy Lyf wif0ut any pr0bz,regrets n w0rries"..... cn i hv dat?? i'm wiLLing 2 beg.... bt i noe i cn't... iz aLL FATED... wadeva in my Lyf d0esn't seems 2 b ryte.... i cn mend my 0wn waes... bt iz not up 2 me ryte?? bt untiL wen iz da qn... i jz HATE my Lyf nw... i wanna g0 0verseas!! i wanna hv a peacefuL mind.... n peeps... if 1 dae... if!! 1 dae... u guyz neva heard frm me after da appeaLing resuLts... n i ch0se ITE as my finaL decision 2 futher my studies,dun eva ask y... i might jz went siLence..we might mit sumwhere n sumhw bt i wud rather we b jz frenz... frenz 0f jz being rmbered we're 0nce skuLmates... i dunnoe y.... bt Lyk i've said.... "IF" pLZ d0 respect my decision n my undastanding... i've had enuf 0f misery n suffer.... Let me Live in a new Lyf... n new different environment...
"Encouragement is the oxygen to our soul" a quote frm wu zun.....
