it happened again!!
i simpLy hate it..
is it wad i wish 4 in my bdae??i din Xpect dat!!
wadeva i dreamt 0f came true!!
da same ting happen again!!
b0th incident happen 2daes b4 da actuaL dae...da ferst 1 was 2daes b4 my actuaL application 0f resuLts came 0ut,it stated dat i'm not posted...iz true isn't it??
da 2nd 1 was 2 daes b4 0s0 da appeaL 0f resuLts which iz 2dae...sh0ot arh!!in dat dream i was supposed 2 gt pharmaceuticaL sci[hope i gt da name ryte] bt den in dat dream dere's a switch dat i gt materiaLs sci...n guez wad??!!da resuLts 2dae saes i gt materials sci!!
g0sh!!as i was Xpected!!
i've neva bLif dream cums true!!
bt y nw??!!
it reLi pissed me 0ff!!
my m0m is s0o hapi bt wen she knew dat i dun wan 2 take it up...
she jz w0k away n dun evn wan 2 speak 2 me..
i t0Ld her,iz difficuLt...
she sae nvrmd nvrmd....
veri ez!!
waLiao!!
it reLi pissed me 0ff!!
bt dun w0rie...
me n my m0m nw iz ouhk..=)
she sae iz up 2 me...
bt if i try 0ut,n i dun Lyk it,i cn ask 4 a transfer...
n my onLy ch0ice 0f transfer iz 2 ITE La sinz i've 0ready made an appeaL dere b4..futhermore,i cn take da Oct intake...dere's anudder intake mahx..ryte??
bt c La!!
strez arh!!
n i bet u guyz muz b wondering,y choose it wen i dun Lyk it ryte??
it was my Last ch0ice..
i jz put it c0z i dun hv any 0tha ch0ice...
neva Xpect dat i gt dat!!
i guez if i neva put dat,i w0n't gt any posting again...
haishh...
fine..i stiLL hv abt a mth tym 2 tink abt it c0z if i'm nt wr0ng,da skuL starts in mid-apriL..i tink..
not sure abt it...
4 nw,i'm jz tired 0f tears 0f disapp0intment....
i c hw it g0es...
s0rie noris n iqah,i cn't go wif u guyz up da hiLL...
i'm stiLL unstabLe yet La...
not in any m0od...
u guyz hv fun La ehk..=)
we mit s0me 0tha dae den....
if i cn make it 2 reLi turned it up 0ut weLL...
Last bt not Least,i wud Lyk 2 apoLogise 2 one of my fren...tHx s0o much 4 ur story...it do heLp bt i guez not 4 nw...i'LL rmber wad u've said...thx...bt i'm reLi am s0rie 2 make u sae aLL dat...i might stiLL b ungratefuL stiLL wif my Lyf nw...bt i jz cudn't heLp it..s0rie ya..giv me s0me tym 2 reLi gain back my c0nfidence...da resuLts reLi hurtz me aLot..it sh0ws hw weak i m in being 2 b in a battle field...ya...i was in a battle field...no1 noes abt it...i battle wif a few of ppLs in my Lyf,n i was defeated by dem...aLL 0f dem...dat's wad hurtz me aLot c0z thru0ut da yrs in sec sch Lyf,dhose ppL t0oK me as a chaLLenger n dat i hardLy gt defeated by dem...haishh...i wud sae nw dat i'm a sore Loser...i Lost!!n dat i've wasted my sec sch Lyf in gtting dh0se grades 2 gt into da cLass n da subject dat i dreamt abt...haishh..dun wish 2 go on LA...i'm jz s0o s0rie....4give me...
LAST RESORT-PAPA ROACH
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort, suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fu** if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong, would it be right
If I took my life tonight, chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight and I'm contemplating suicide
Cause I'm losin' my sight, losin' my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing's fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I never realized I was spread too thin
'Til it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself no love for another
Searching to find a love on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cause I'm losing my sight losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing's fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I can't go on living this way
