morning peeps!!as i have predicted,my appLication 2 ITE iz a success...i toLd my mom,she was s0o sh0cked...from her reaction i can know that she really don't want me to accept it since my application to republic polytechnic have been a success...i'm damn confused...if i accept to ITE,i do can see my future,but then there's something that i would regret la...i can revealed it out but it's gonna bring me through my life...but if i accept to republic polytechnic,it would be a different matter as that's what they want...even though it is not what i want...after the incident last sunday,i knew i can't go back and accept ITE as something bad would happen...but it is not what i want..it is not my passion...but once accepted,i can't back off and say i want to have a transfer of school...my dad would really deal with me...but then again,every time i asked my parents or siblings for opinions,the only thing they say iz up to me cause itt's my future...but which ever school i accept there's a sacrifice in it...so which should i sacrifice??which is important??if i have a choice,i would rather not go to school..seriously!!it's damn frustrating and confusing!!i hate to be in this situation...it's hurting me..!!i have to make a decision by thursday as that's the last day of the ITE acceptance and also the beginning of the republic polytechnic registeration...ITE registeration is next week....but i have to make my decision by tomorrow as tomorrow is the day me and my dad is going to the Bank to fill in the form of the republic polytechnic compulsory forms for registeration....haishh...if only someone can help me which i doubt so cause everyone says the same thing..no point....but it is the situation that drives me crazy!!if only my application to Polytechnic that time was a success....haishh....it really pissed me off!!
decision to be made by tomorrow...which would it be??materials science or business admin??haishh...where is it that i can really see my future??my passion...my life....who should sacrifice??me or them??who deserve more??plz God....give me strength.....let me for once not to make any mistakes....if only i can combine both...haha....dream on..i told my mom that i'm accepting both..she say crazy!!hahas...i am sooooooo confused!!i don't seem to know which....who's willing to really accept what ever decision i've made??there would be problems in which ever decision but i can't seem to know if i can't really live on with those problems...i'm taking a huge risk.............
WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU BADLY....??
HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME....
YOU'RE DAMN CRUEL!!
YOU PUT ME IN THIS SITUATION AND YOU LEAVE ME WITHOUT ANY WORDS....
I HATE YOU!!
I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE YOU!!NEVER!!
EVEN IF THE PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO KNOWS WHAT U'VE DONE TO ME,NOT TO HOLD GRUDGES ON YOU,
BUT I WOULD NEVER NEVER NEVER FORGIVE AND FORGET YOU FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME!!
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