FAVOURITISM!!
i hate it!!
just why is it everything that i do is wrong?!
why is it u prioritize someone who dont appreciate it at all?!
just what else must i do to convince u...??
i've always listen to u and try to make things right, u push all the blames to me...
u have always treated me differently...
u always agree to her own ways, but always forbid me to do the things that are not approved by the family in the first place...
why is it u have to keep things for her when u know she dont even need those things!!
why is it u dont get angry like u do to me??
why is it she can get to do everything and not me?!
why is it i have to be home by 7-8pm the latest but she can reached home anytime she wants?
even when she reached home at 3am, u dont even dare to lock her out but to just advice her in the morning...
u just being UNFAIR!!
u treat me like a prisoner but treat her like an angel...
u dont even care that we are breaking apart..
u blame it on me, not respecting her...
u blame others but not HER!!
when i try to debate and try to make my stand clear, u say u can't do anything...
u dont even know the favouritism u showing!!
u still backing up on her!!
even an outside u treat more than u should!!
why lie to yourself about your dissatisfaction to that outsider!!
why say to me??!!
why not say it to her?!
WHY ME??!!!
i know me being the only one left have no choice...
i dont mind...
but the thing is that, why is it u never did try to make her the awareness that u deserve the respect?!
u deserve to have the last say...
and that she needs your approval for everything that involves everyone around her!!
it is so unfair!!
she have her happiness,enjoying her life like she wants it to be, but we all are suffering because of her and SHE DONT EVEN CARE??!!
MY GOSH!!
if i have the right, i would have slap her....
scold her...
do whatever to make her realised how grateful she MUST be!!
let her know how much others have sacrifised for her and she wasted on it!!
patience do have the limit!!
today didn't go to school... feeling quite unwell.... but then when my boyfriend got to know about it, he thought of asking me out to watch a movie.. so i did... hahas... he skipped school just for me.. aww... hahas... early morning my friend msg me to ask for a help... i wanted to wake up late around 9am, but end up talking on phone from 7am-10am... haish... wasted.... so ya.. we watched "the Simpsons Movie" was kind of funny la... laugh non-stop... hees... we watched at Jurong Point... and then around 6pm i went home as he have to go for soccer.. haish... guys are just addicted to soccer huh? haish... then reached home, i ATE LOTS LOTS OF SUSHI!! yay!!! sushi gyrl for the day!! wweeee....!! i simply love sushi!!=)
the last few days was just a boring day for me..
nothing to report or say..
that's it! :p
just that i've been having "nightmares"....
it is haunting me...
but sometimes, somethings are best untold...
why must it came back when i'm happy with my life now..
happy with someone i love...
haish...
