fEezA'S nEw LyF

2007-12-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

PS: you guys can only view my last entry.. sorry...
and so today is the end of the year 2007....
things started out good...
i just love it!
but at the end of the day....
everything just went down....
it become the worse day for me...
how great to end the year...
i wished my year end was going to be with fun....smiles...loves...and memories that i treasured most!!
but turned out.. i shed tears....
i had a completely different ending... life is so unfair!!
why is it i have to go through so much of pain!!!??
and NOONE cares!!
not even my cousins!!
argh!!
i'm really exhausted!!
i really feel like giving up with my life!! completely!!
but i know...
it will be unfair to my boyfriend...
he have sacrifices alot for me...
he have been there for me all along...
and because of him....
i'm still here... still trying hard to be strong...
pretending to be happy when deep in me there's misery... there's sorrowness...
as for my new resolution for the year 2008....
'no delaying!'....
i've been delaying alot of things...
no more delaying as i know others are hurt because of my delays...
i'm sorry peeps...
i know....
i've disappointed alot of people around me...
and now...
i need to change!!
adn as for now...
i dont wish to talk any further...
i'm just feeling too weak....
but i love my day with him at ECP! (:

here's my new linkie : CLICK ME!

hold on to your promises syg...
hold on me tight and dont let me fall to the ground and left me alone...

2007-12-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

argh!! i hate my blogger entry now!! argh!! what's wrong sia!! i never even changed my settings!! argh!! damn!!

so yeah! today kind of scary day for me! haish... ever since morning... seem not to be on the right track arh.. haish... firstly i woke up late just now morning.. then i check my new blogger, everything is in a mess as i could not get the main picture on the my site.. haish.. damn! i redo everything... then i have to rush to buy breakfast... then went out with my mom to the wedding ceremony at Jurong West and Bukit Gombak.. haish...

i think i really need to cut down on my eating!!! arghh!! i wore my kebaya, which was bought only beginning of this year... haish... damn! i didn't even eat at the two places.. in fact, i ate a little only.. too scared to eat... haish!! need to do some workout la!!!!! i guess it is true.. people in love then to 'grow'!! hahahaha... damn!

the most scariest thing ever happened to me for this year is the one in the lift.. seriously, is he a stalker or whaT?!! a kind stalker?!! my gosh!! he just came in to take the same lift as me... he didn't even press the lift number.. then i looked at him, he then press 8th floor... he was like coughing in the lift.. so i thought nothing about it.. then he started saying 'hi'... i never thought of anything also as i thought he was talking on his handphone... then i sense he was looking at me.. so i turned la.. then he said to me, 'boleh buat kawan?? awak nak tk??' which means.. 'can we be friends, do u want??'... i quickly shaked my head... then he says, 'tak boleh??' which means, ' cannot??'... i just walked out of the lift as it is my floor already.. then he was like looking at which direction i was going.. how stupid of me not to go the other way!! feeza!!!! argh!! couldn't be blame... i was terrified!! then i saw the lift stopped at level 6 then go up to level 8.. i told my mom about it.. she just ask some questions.. she suspected he is a non Singaporean as he looks chinese but speak malay with a chinese slang... my dad even lectured me.. haish... poor thing! fobia sia!! now i dont dare to go home alone!! :(

and then just now.. i went to the wedding ceremony at Hong Kah CC.. my gosh!! that's far u know! coz the family lived in woodlands.. isk2.. but what surprised me is the place!! they make it so the hotel style! haha.. but seriously!! we were asked to sign in and say some words before entering.. my dad was writing and halfway he asked me to continue! lol! how would i know right? then when we entered! wah!!!!! nice la sey!! the 'pelamin' was damn catchy!! how i wish mine to be like that!! hahaha... and the service was good!! loving it!! (:
the food also was good! my mom said... i didn't eat much as you know..my kebaya!! haish.. damn!! but the DJ la... haish... just dont understand... but everything was alright la..! hehe.. only my dad did something weird and funny... he say the tea was too sweet.. he wanna asked for plain water but turned out he took the blueberry punch! my gosh! imagine that he mixed both the tea with blueberry punch! the tea is without milk la.. my mom also.. i looked at the drink.. my gosh!! black!! and my mom says it taste sour! nyahahahah....!! so cute!! my dad still laugh!! hahah... funny sia!!

and yarh people!! 1 more entry and off to my new blog!! do check it out okok?? it is ok if u dont know yet.. this blog will still be here and i will show my link on my msn yarh!! (:

today i find it weird... i made a few emo sentences about love by myself... but sorry... i wont write it here! haha.. it is unlike of me to do so... so i only write it to my beloved one, my boyfriend! hehehe... baddy... sorry peeps! :p

and so, aint you cute when u're speechless! (:
lots of loves and misses to you...

2007-12-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

something went wrong with my blogger today... haish... damn! so currently i'm working on my new blog site! weee..!! so far so good! (:

so yarh.. today still feeling not good... haish.. i just dislike being unwell... but still.. i went out to apply a job! hehehe... i was thinking hard of coming up with a decision to do so.. thinking of only have 4weeks of school left, just give me the urge to apply... feeling so weak, looking quite pale, i walked out of house with my friend, Siti... yeah! we apply to place in the end.. and both are just a distance from our house... hehe.. save trip u know! then after school also, easy for me to go and work.. dont u think so? lucky i'm schooling in RP! nyahaha.. high advantage.. but then... just when i bump into my dad at the carpark as he just reached home from work.. got scolding sia because of that.. haish... i just listen to him... because i know... he really wants me to focus 100% in my studies.. haish... nevermind, what's done is done! hehehe...

so yarh... i was surfing my friendster... then i came across something... something that brings me back to my past.. feeling angry, feeling disappointed and sad all at once.. but just too bad.. i am tired of waiting... had enough of waiting for something that i knew, it would never changed the outcomes.. so i have to let go of the past no matter how i dread that everything just went well... haish... and i'm happy with who i am now! and that's it! the past would never break apart with my current status! that's the promise i've made.. and so i wish whatever that might brings back my past, i wish it all be away from me! far far away! i hate it when i managed to forget everything and it comes back to me! I HATE THAT! whether it is coincidentally or intentionally! argh!!

and it is getting late now.. it is already past midnight.. if my boyfriend knows this, he's gonna get angry!! sorry syg! hehehe... as usual... feeza is damn stubborn! hehehe...kk.. nytes people! rmber to relink me to my new bloggy starts on Jan1st08! (:

take care people! fyza loves you! (:

-you always know how to make me feel secure by your love! (:-
-once again, i'm speechless. (:-

2007-12-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

[oh!guess who?? hmmm...??]

[i just dont get it,why people likes to take my pix when i'm eating?? haish...]

[something just not right... :(]

teehee!! blogging time!! nothing much to update la basically...simply happy today!! hehehe... eventhough my day start off rough till i am not feeling well but i really enjoyed!! it has been so long since i had a day out with Noris... seriously, she's delighted!! (:
well, didn't spent much today... just one shirt... but my dear Noris, spent alot sia!! she really shopping spree! hahahaha.. envy her sia! haish... we have been talking all the way!! i just love to hear her story about working life... (:
how i wish i can get to work also.. :( then we went to Bugis! weee...!! loving it!! it was simply fun!! hehehe... bump into a few friends... then met xiang ting at Mini Toons Causeway Point! she still remembered me! hehe.. primary school friend and then to secondary school friend! then we went to Banquet, ate sushi.. was in complete schocked upon knowing who work there! i was in phobia sia!! haish... then my brother called me up as he and my cousins are all at Banquet.. was in a dilemma sia! end up i never meet them.. my cousins are going to tease me again! haish... furthermore, the car would not have enough seats and then where will i be right?? on top of the car?!! lol!!

yesterday was supposed to be fun... my sis was supposed to treat me Swensen.. but then... it was cancelled... due to what happened to her car.. she was feeling down.. there goes my free handphone from her! haish.. so yarh.. spent my day with him... was fun! sweets! (:

so i have to cancel my day for tomorrow and saturday... thanks alot sia! was damn moody because of that.. and i'm sorry iqah... really am! haish... and also to my w35p classmates.. really sorry.. i'm not allowed to go out la.... damn! i hate it when this happens! argh! and thanks syg for being there for me.. haish...

well, k then.. stop here for now! i need a rest! take care people! (:

we're getting closer... dnt drift away...
sweetlove... (:

2007-12-25T17:45:00.000+08:00

boredom!! argh!! sat at home today.. slack slack...!(: the funny thing is that.. early in the morning, i had calls, i had msges.. haish... alarm clock! my sis had 3 alarm clock la sey!! no beauty sleep for me.. :( then my sis as usual, disturb me! argh! purposedly la she! nothing better to do.. she woke me up to help her wrap the Christmas gift that was supposed to give to her student.. imagine, how can we wrap when we both are half asleep.. should have seen how it turns out to be... nyahaha.. but she just say it is ok! lol! after that, my sis can still ask me to go back to sleep! my gosh! stomach grumpling, how to sleep right? what only! funny and weird sister.. as usual.. the weird family! (:

blog hopping is what i did... thinking of that.. i'm simply lazy to change to a new blog... so maybe i'll just continue with this blogger but with a new link and a new layout! (:

feeza is simply getting lazy each day... only at times when she was being forced to do things then she'll get hyper! nyahaha... and now, she's watching Romantic Princess... slow right?haha... what to do.. busy girl.. :( i wonder i am busy with what??hmmm...?? noone knows... like mother, like daughter! (:

so i went for a blog hopping just now.. then i came across to a blog.... it has been so long, since i last remembered or mentioned that name from my mind... but that name was reminded by iqah... gosh! was restless for a moment... but iqah wasn't to be blamed.. honestly, everything was being erased off my mind... i have realised, i have completely erased my past... but then... if there's no past, there will be no present or future... i guessed it has been nearly more than half a year since i stepped on to that school... and i have left my past since the day i got attached... thinking back... i'm glad i have gone over my past... i'm not who i am previously... but i hope, my life is getting better... i just hope.... and my main focused is basically school.. strange.. but yarh... i have yet to accomplish the dream that i've long wished... with the support from my love ones... i know, all the more, i am focusing on my future... and i'm disappointed in myself someway somehow... i've managed only to repay back what i've neglected only to some.. but to the one in need, it is drifting away and away... and i miss those moments... i'm at fault... remembering one of the video clip that i've made for them on one particular birthday party... i just missed those moments.. and i think, i wanna make another video clip for peeps! the long lasting friendship that i had with my friends.. in memories of them... showing my gratitude to them.. (:
yarh.. i think i should make one... soonest when i'm free.. maybe on the 10 weeks of holiday if i'm not working.. damn! mentioning about that, i'm so pissed! i was supposed to work for this 3weeks... again.. feeza 'buih' to myself... haish.. simply no time la sey.. and i dont dare to promise again... haish...

and tomorrow really going to be a hard day for me... my sis is going to treat me swensen! but then.. my dearest boyfriend wants to tag along! and surprisingly, my sis says 'yes!'... oh man! now i'm thinking how am i going to ensure that tomorrow went well... haish... oh please.... i hope it wasn't being let out.. oh please... :(
i guessed, my sis just wanna know who is the mystery one huh? haish.. but sooner or later, she ought to know also.. nyahaha... only.... aiya! who knows, will know la.. if i let out here, is considered not a secret anymore right?how dumb can i be?? haish...feeza feeza...

i was surfing the net...
& i found this quote....

"love is being honest with yourself at all times.
being honest with the other person at all times.
telling, listening, respecting the truth and never pretending.
LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF REALITY."

this is the promise that we hold through.
i hope it stays.
forever.
&imissyou.
i hope tomorrow everything went well.(:

2007-12-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

sister lurb! (:

teehee!! went out with iqah today!! didn't start off the day well.. but turn out a funny day!! hehe...seriously! so end up only me and iqah.. CT supposed to come along but have some problems... and she's scaring me away!! gosh! and here i am worried for her, she still can take things easy.. haish... i guess i worried too much... :(

so first stop! marina square! ate at kfc... had some blessed moments! heheh... and then we went to Suntec, ate Yami Yoghurt and Auntie Anne's Pretzel! nyahaha... was damn craving to eat the pretzel but turn out it wasn't that nice as the one i taste before and iqah said the same thing... haish... but the Yami Yoghurt is nice right iqah?!! hehehe... at around 3.30 we rushed back to Causeway point to meet up with Noris but was a great disappointment... haish.. so yarh.. believe it or not, me and iqah just went to City Hall to eat!! and we both are so bloated, we have a hard time to talk and walk! nyahahahja.... so cute!!

and i'm packed for the next few days.. can say i'm happy but sad also... haish... poor me! and i have one more week to school! cant wait for my sister's treat!! wee...!! (:

throughout the day, funny and weird incidents do happened.. it was simply fun! tiring day but simply loving it! sweets! (:
and you're welcome iqah! anything for a friend!! smile always yarh!! (:

i simply need a simple break... i'm beginning my life anew.. and i'm expecting the unexpected! surprised me will you?! i believe in fate.. (:

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE! (:
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

all i want for Christmas is "YOU"....
my dear!
i'll be urs forever... (:
and i'm waiting.... hee... (:

2007-12-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

sorry... camwhoring moment... hehehe...

the last few days was a completely exhausted days for me!!

friday... i had to do everything... the housework... my mom was ill.. so everything i had to do.. my sis only did a quarter of what i did and she says she's tired! great!! then she has to go to work... but then thursday, she didn't even do much! fine... good girl for the day.. even my friend asked me why i've been a good girl for the past few days! nyahaha... unlike side of me when i stayed at home! nyehehe... rare to see me so hardworking! get reward la sey! but feeza did it dengan rela hati.. seikhlas ikhlas nye tau! (:

saturday.... worse day! early morning, had to 'exercise' thanks to my dad... had not have breakfast, just a glass of milk, went out with my dad... the post office, was damn long queue la sey! i nearly faint! haish.. then the person in front of me, just give me a bad day! argh! wonder, just what did i do wrong? hmm....? then in the afternoon, went vivo with my boyfriend... we wanna see the deal or no deal! nyahaha... but only watched awhile... sorry syg.. i just dont feel too good... think i had gastric that time cause have eaten late and only eat a little.. haish... so busy day! going back home, i slept all the way! thanks syg! heee... (:
then had to buy alot of stuffs... haish... and syg, glad u had your sushi... reached home late, lucky my mom not in her bad mood! but pity my sis... she really wants to go shopping... but noone accompany her.. she called up on me when i'm still at vivo... then i msg her awhile later, she reached home already and then she says in a sad tone, she was at home... haish... sorry sis! and that night, i really had my beauty sleep! (:

sunday.... today.. another tiring day... i had to follow my mom to the wedding ceremony near my house... there's two... and there it goes again, introduction to my mom's friend... i dislike that... all they will say is,' this is ur youngest child?? so big??!' , 'which school is she in?? poly?? so good??which poly??'... oh! i dread it when they begin to say about that! argh! and the thing is that, when they knew i'm in RP, they begin to say how 'good' their child is... argh! but no choice... then after that visit my grandma at Marsiling!! weee...!! she lived at one of my auntie's house there... so cute arh my grandma! my auntie and my mom also so cute! hahah... their past memories are just damn cute!! honestly, we ought to be grateful that our life are not as tough as them... seriously peeps! be grateful with what u have now... dont be complacent! then we went to causeway point, did some window shopping.. then i realised, it has been so long since i last see the change in causeway point.. hehe.. met noris also for awhile... hehe... miss her! so long never meet up with her...

and yarh peeps... whatever i work as for a part time job, is all about gaining experience... i dont care how much the amount is... that was not what i'm particular off... i just need some working experience... even if as a factory.. DONT EVER think i'm a factory gyrl or 'minah factory'! i'm doing something that is not wrong... feeza keje membuat perkara yang halal bukan nye haram... it is not worth it if we only think of losing face or not.. cause like i've said, people in the olden days work much tougher than us and they are not complaining, so why must we?! sorry if this might offend some people, but i'm speaking what's in my mind...

so yarh.. i'll stop here for now... i want to rest la.. tomorrow will be another tiring day or i would say a happy day?! going out with my sister lurb! take care people! (:

merry christmas to everyone out there! (:

and you deserved my love...
love u dear! (:

2007-12-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

[chocolate cornflakes made by my sis!] [my sis say i look like elmo!lol!]

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI PEOPLE!! (:

today was a fun day for me! hehehe... was awaken by a message at first early in the morning by my dearest friend who is in Thailand for 3weeks due to the CE points.. hehe... poor thing... shocking also that my friend message me... the message sounds sad... aww... but what to do...
then my dearest sister disturb my sleep! oh my! look at the time, i was like so 'early'!! haha... then another message that makes me smile! hehehe.... thanks syg! (:

rushed in doing things... my mom fall sick.. haish... then i have to do alot of things... even the things that i rarely do i find it fun! nyahaha... but as usual my sis dont help much... my mom dont even say anything... besides my mom help her! argh! so unfair! so yarh... i made some puddings! but left a few only by a day... all ate it.. my auntie and uncle came to tell us about their trip last weekends that i was supposed to go.. fun but then... haish... wasn't allowed by my parents... my auntie say if i were to go, they would have thrown me in the sea! LOL! that's what they always like to do to me! BULLY ME!! hahahahahaha.... what to do... i'm easily bullied... nyahahaha.. that sound so wrong! hehe... but looking at the photos they went to sedili seems fun la shey!! haish... poor thing! :(

so yarh! today me and my sis made a nuisance at home... she making the chocolate cornflakes! and seriously! the chocolate so tempting sia!! nyahaha... i help her some way la.. mostly, help her to lick the chocolate! dont get me wrong.. lick at the spoon after everything is done... and so is she! hehe... really! sometimes, my mom joined in.. nyahaha... as usual, i'm the one who likes to crack jokes.. but then whatever i say, i always say the facts, and they find it funny!! weird!! nyahaha... but the fun thing is that, we come up with so many crazy ideas and then my sis scold me because have not buy for her the waffle from my school! nyahaha!! tk logic! hehe... but cant wait for her treat to swensen next week!!!!!!!!!weee...!!! (:

and yarh! had a few movies watched at home! hehehe... except alvin and the chipmunks! my gosh!! so damn cute la!! hehehe... wanna ask my bro to find the movie again! hehe... and there's a few movies awaiting!! wee...!! (:

and yarh! my damn handphone is freaking giving me troubles again!! and yarh, i cant get new handphone... something urgent cropped up and my sis need the money.. haish.. so no new handphone for me.. i'll have to endure for another a few months... haish... nevermind... hopefully my handphone will be fine.. my precious handphone la sia! cant bear to be apart from it.. hehe..

&happy birthday to Iqah! sorry iqah.. i nearly forgot!! really sorry! and i guessed, i'm the last one to wish u... :(

you are the music in me. (:

2007-12-18T00:40:00.000+08:00

weee...!!! went out with my sister lurp today!! so happy!! went to bugis... and then to vivo... then to causeway point and lastly vista point! my gosh! cant feel my legs la shey...well, if only noris can follow us! hehehe... well, actually i wasnt in any mood to go out due to the problems i had at home... but then miss them la shey!! so long never go out with them... hehehh.... turn out to be fine only the ending of my day just sucky! argh!

so yea! bought i think 3 clothes? hehe... think so la... was attracted to this pair of pump shoe but nevermind... save money la shey!! hehehe... but i was like crazy over 'little miss' t-shirts... hehe... so end up bought 'little miss flickly'... fickle minded fyza.. that's what i am known as... couldnt make a decision... ooppss! but everything was great la! hehe.. miss the old days... aww.... (:

but hey! we're going to meet again next week!! (:
going to town i guess right iqah?? hehe... but i wish to introduce to you guys the Yami Yoghurt la... seriously! it is nice!! even my boyfriend get hooked to it! hehehh... and i hope noris is free... so noris! are u free my dear?! haish....

so yea.. i cant go out for the next few days until thursday... argh! damn! so sorry MI peeps.. i'm sorry i couldnt make it for tomorrow... hopefully u guys will have fun! (:
and happy birthday to you, Rusydi..

ok. i guess i'm broke now.. hehehe.... opps! saving time fyza!! argh!! and tomorrow, i'm losing a few friends...!!! argh!! so sad!! i nearly cry la shey!! esp when knowing my dearest friend going off to Thailand for nearly 3weeks... haish.. so gonna miss those advises that was given by my dearest friend... haish... *take note: i dont miss the person but the advices that was given to me..* haish.. sad la shey! then one of my sister lurp is having a week of holidays overseas! argh!! all leaving me behind.. poor me! =(
but i know my cousins all did have fun during the cousins outing for the past weekends.. haish...

and yarh!! to those who are receiving the N'level results tomorrow i supposed, all the best yarh!! good luck!! (:
i hope my cousin passed.. haish...

and i still wonders how is my other sister lurps doing with their life.. haish... i hope they are fine... i miss them lots sia! haish... nevermind.... my 3weeks holiday i seriously need a rest... i'm tired with what i've gone through... what i'm feeling is much more worse than before... haish.. just one thing in my mind... "i'm giving up.i'm giving up with my life." haish... i just wish to be somewhere that would not have any more pain... haish.... noone can understand the place i'm in..
it just am sucky... haish...and i'm enduring still.... still trying hard to endure... sorry to those who affected someway somehow... but i'm glad that whenever i'm with u guys, everything was alright just like how i wish it to be.. thanks.. (:

and yarh! someone have just made me shocked! i was missed! nyahaha! and i take it as a joke because since last time, i can never believe the things the person says to me.. nyahaha... and i was right! jealousy did happen between us just because i was in the top 3 in sec 2! my gosh!! i dont believe that! jealous brings through all this years! lol.... nevermind... i admit defeat.. i know.. this is my first time, admit defeated as i dont like being defeated... but this time round, i'm really tired... really tired... haish...

can i say i miss u?
coz love is all about you & me... (:

2007-12-16T12:00:00.000+08:00

KIM JEONG HOON! (:
[KIM JUNG HOON!] (:
my new idol!! wee...!! (:

tee hee!! here i am again! i'm delighted la shey!! firstly because i'm in a holiday mood! secondly because tomorrow is my gyrls day out day!! wee..!! i love it!! and i hope to have another gyrls day out day la shey!! so missing them!! hehe.... well, yea!! i'm gonna write another 10 more entries in this blog, and a new blog will be created!! weee..!! new year, new blog! and i'll be having 200 entries in this blog! cool! (:

so yarh! yesterday heard a good news from my sis!! she's gonna buy a new handphone for me la shey!! loving it! (:
this freaking handphone is driving me crazy and getting me into troubles! argh! i hate it! but then i'll keep this handphone as there's alot of memories in it! (:
and i think i wanna change number next year la! but not confirm yet.. haish...

well, this week is gonna be a packed week! hard a rough day for the past few days but manage to maintain it... (:
well, in two days more, i'm gonna miss my friend! haish... my friend going to Thailand la shey! for like 2-3 weeks... nevermind... i hope everything will be fine... (:

today had my mandarin class before the 2weeks break... so far so good la... i manage to catch up.. had a rough time at the start of the day... with the aunites who just makes my day turn nearly worse! then my school called up to say that the make up class for me is being cancelled due to a certain circumstances! oh gosh! tell me how can i not be pissed when i was already in a rush and with those blisters and then the aunties... i already had a sleepless nights before... woke up at about 5am.... and i dreamt of school! 'wth huhh??'... doesn't make any sense huh?
whatever la... dont wanna think about school for this 3weeks of holiday arh! enough of school already... very tired... haish..

and so! 2007 is gonna end soon... have to make a new wish... a new goals for the year 2008... so far i already have a few!! weee...!! (:
and one thing i wanna do is forget the past and focused on my present and future! (:

and yarh! added one more thing...
Hady Mirza won the Asian Idol! hah! i knew it! when they want to tell the result, i was like, "how come i have the feeling that Hady Mirza would win?"... and then the result was out!! hah!
i have no comment can i? (:

i'm sorry but my heart already belong to someone who appreciates it.(:

2007-12-14T20:36:00.000+08:00

teehee!! holidays is finally here!! my gosh!! the long waited holidays!! will be a busy days ahead of me!! nyahahaa...!! so many outings! and i love it! hope so! not going for the malaysian trip with my cousins tomorrow... awww.. so sad! hehe... but it is ok! no fun without any of my family members around! so yea! missing out the fun! OH YARH!! those who are interested to check out the RP's Open House please do so this weekends yarh! hehe... looks interesting u know! i think... (:

today drag myself to go school... just because heard that my faci is cooking but turn out that he didn't! aww...! everyone is so demoralised by it... i nearly went home halfway and i realised that this week was really a downfall week for me... the faci tends to hint me alot! argh! and last week was a bad week for me with all the unssatisfied grade! oh yarh! saying about grades, yesteday was a sucky day!! was kicked out of class la shey! f**k la shey! what the heck with that faci! and i'm glad i would never see him ever again after that! he gave me a C.. my fault la i never do much things, in fact, i was doing ppt la shey! whatever la.. glad it was over! (:

ok la.. stop here for now.. got something to attend to! hehe.... updated again soon! happy holidays people!! (:
take care!

happy 6th month anniversary my dear!
forever love!(:

2007-12-11T20:15:00.000+08:00

oh haish! feeling quite terrible today.. strange! when i was at home, i feel so sick! but then when i'm in school, nothing! just the headache which just would not want to go away.. :(

school was alright for both yesterday and today... my faci for science is changing.. and that my faci went off to japan!!! my gosh!! how come the faci are easily taking off days!! haish.. well, seriously, everyone is so in the holiday mood now... a few more days only la shey!!! wee...!! hehe...

so yarh!today my mind was completely on school!! sorry sayang! and i manage to endure the whole day la shey!! nyahaha... what am i talking? haish... but seriously, after the mandarin class last sunday, i feel so tensed up!! i really hate the feeling of being left behind!! i really need to buck up sia! haish..

the weather is so cold and so cooling! cant wait for the holidays!1 can sleep! i hope.. provided i dont work la... hehe... (: but i really am looking for work la!! i got another job opportunity!! work at sentosa!! wahhh!! damn shiok man!! but then wasn't allowed by my mom!! argh!!!! it must be a great experience shey!! and i really want it badly... but then... haish.. poor thing... poor feeza... heheh.. (:

& yarh! i hate LIARS!!!! damn it arh!! dont make a fool out of me la! no one can fool me damn it! i'm so pissed shey! my gosh! be sincere la if wanna make friends! dont make friends for the sake of making friends! say different things but turn out to be a different thing! eerrgghh!! dont take advantage of gyrls just because gyrls are easily fallen into guys trapped! argh!!! damn it!! i just hate it!!!!!!! add me just for the fun of it cause i happen to be in the email.. my gosh! tk logic la sia!! add me long ago and only now u want to chat and now making me like a fool!! arghh!! i wouldn't want to talk to you ever again!!!! not even want to see in any part of the school area!! back off!!
*sorry for my harsh words..i'm pissed of being taken advantage off!enough of my past la.. i've had enough! life sometimes is just so unfair.. haish...*

3days left....
enduring...
loves.. (:

2007-12-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

woohoo!! another cold day.. haish... so i had my class today! my gosh! nearly 2months of delaying, i feel so so so guilty! i forgotten most of the characters! eerrgghh!! and furthermore everyone in the class was cleverer and fast learner as compared to me, the 'slow' one.. haish... but the good and the bad thing is that, there's a malay, s'porean guy in my clasS! ergh! seriously! he seems familiar! i think he is somehow my cousin's friend! haish.. whatever la! he's such a distraction! argh! this is what makes me dragged myself to go to school... i jsut wish the class end early shey! kk. back to the topic.. so yarh, next week i have to do a make up lesson! i totally forgot la shey! and my teacher speaks everything in mandarin and her style of teaching is different.. imagine, u being in a class of like straight A's student and u're just an average student! my gosh! i really need to buck or else i would not get a certificate la shey! so yea! now i have to occupy my mind fully in studying! once i get this cert, i will consider to continue or not and then i focus on PP... before focusing on PP, i would focused in finishing up my year 1's module! weehee!! 5more weeks of lesson and off to the 10weeks holiday!!! can't wait!! (:

the weather seems to be a rainning season... i think i'm gonna be sick soon! i think i am having flu and fever soon! haish.. have been having a terrible headache for days already... haish.. and now sore throat! oh please... dont be sick now.. i need to work if i get a job soon! haish... had blisters today.. damn hate it! but hey!! i had a Yami Yoghurt day!!!!!!!!!!!! i love it man!!!! medium size for me is just not enough!! think should have bought the jumbo!! nyahaha!! peeps! try it!! it is damn nice!! (:

kk.. i'm gonna have last shot of stressful before getting to the sunday stress! this sunday, a make up class.! i need to get early! i need to ensure that i have to be in school at 9.30am!!! haish... damn! but then one thing for sure, i need to get my mind on school already... focus feeza focus feeza! no more slacking and no more delaying! and yarh! one last thing! if u guys think that i might have changed in someway or another when i go out, dont say anything! i know it will be unlike of me... but someone have just changed me! i'm still feeza ok? *peace* (:

sista, please.. i hope u're ok.. (:
i love u sis! (:

eventhough today is just an ordinary day.
we both know that it is a special day.
i hope the real special day will be a great and another memorable day. (:
love you sayang!
muackz! (:

2007-12-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

1st pic: back to studying.. haish... :(
2nd pic: aint it cute? :x

sorry for not blogging for a week! have been a busy week and i'm just simply lazy to update! nothing interesting happen la shey! haish... have been sick for a week also... haish.. i wish the pain will just go away... well, think it is due to the weather la...

well, the past week, i had my injection on wednesday, had my test on tuesday and thursday.. did i skip any lesson?? hmmm...?? i couldn't remember!! haish... this is it!! when i'm sick, everything is affecting me! my eye sight, my hearing and my thoughts! even the way i speak... my gosh!! it is freaking pissed off la! but one thing for sure, i have not been eating well this few days.. and i'm simply tired!! honestly, the whole week except on friday, i didn't take bus to school.. i ask my dad and my brother to send me... see how lazy i am?! people said i'm too pampered! i'm not.... seriously! i dragged myself to school u know! there is even occasions that i couldn't feel my legs or arms suddenly... yarh... i know.. this is the outcome of not exercising much right? haha...serve me right!. haish....

well, to cut short... i really cant remember about the things happen last few days.. sorry! i only know i slck throughout yesterday.. even my faci says that my group is not really on track.. haish... and yarh! those in RP who knows me, what you see is not what you think! i'm loyal ok? friends will be friends... and i'm just repaying a kindsoul that has helped me alot... dont think too much! and dont spread rumours without knowing the facts okok? *peace*

so yea! today i was a tour guide! nyahaha.. a tour guide for the day for my two aunties and my mom.... seriously! not easy being a tour guide u know! haish... damn tiring la! haish.. but then get to buy things la shey! my mom paid! hehe.. the best thing la! heheh... was supposed to go Courts at Tampines but was cancelled... everyone was exhausted.. haish... shopping what! hehe.. so anyway, i have bought, a ladies bag, a pair of shoe and an Esprit shirt! hehe... got sale mahx! hehe... well, basically we went to Singapore Expo la.. took bus from woodlands and dropped at Tampines.. took MRT to Expo.. haish... damn packed! (: everything was worth it!

peeps and sistaz, please ok... dont drift away just because of my status... just because i'm attached does not mean, u guys can't share with me anything... ok.. maybe my fault for neglecting you guys but give me time to re-adjust my schedule.. and sis, please, dont keep things from me... knowing your condition now really makes me feel bad and making me worried... sis, please, i wanna meet up with you soon! i'm deadly worried here! cheer up ok? and please keep me updated... dont always think u're alone! u're never alone my dear! God will always be with you... remember that sis!!!! to my other peeps n sistaz, please ok... share with me like you guys used to... dont keep things from me.. i might be able to help much, but i can be there for you guys okok? haish...

and i just dont understand why some people just dont like others to be happy... just like to pull other's life down... i mean, what do you gain from that? lose friendship? lose trust? everything is only temporary in this world.. nothing last forever... if u guys says forever, it would mean till the end of ur life... isn't that true? well yarh.. in reality we met all sorts of people but then if that person just ruined people's life for the fun of it, my gosh! just f*** off la! (sorry for my harsh words.) been there, not that bad la, but have happened to my close ones, and i hate that! just glad, i didn't bump into them again or else, noone would want to know what will happened! argh! & noone messes with my sistaz or *something just happened!*!!

&yarh! i've applied to a job! hopefully i get it.. please.. for once... haish... but then me n my friend are going to apply more if we dont get this job!! wee.....!! for a moment my mom just never say no and she's glad that apply for it.. hmm..?? =D

& so tomorrow is the day i've waited so far for the past one month!
wee..!!
& another 6days to the 6th month.. :D
*my very own fairytale that leads me speechless..(:*
he knows how to make me speechless again n again.. :D

2007-12-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

oh great! my body is like in pain! think i have sprained it! haish... but then nothing stop me from going out and meet him today... heheh.. bearing the pain everything i'm with him... haish.. and now, having a headache+back pain+ slight fever+dizziness+feeling sleepy, writing this entry.. if my bf knows, i'm so dead! hehe... so yea... went to jurong today.. yarh.. feeling so sick, but still scarifice to go jurong! i'm just stubborn to go there! hehe... just pity him la... (:

so yea! watched "Enchanted" with him... if only a fairytale happens in real life.. "Happily Ever After..." wah! that's good man! but fairytale is just a fairytale... we all just can dream on it only! hehe... haish... oh my!! i'm so addicted to solve this rubik's cube!! nyahaha.. i remembered playing on it when i was small but after moving house, it was gone! hehe.. and now, i am addicted to it again! saw my classmate playing on it just makes me wanna try on it.. but then i only bought the cheapest.. couldn't afford the real one la.. eventhough it is $11 at Toy'r Us, i think it is much worth it to buy the cheap ones.. hehe.. and now, my boyfriend is also addicted to it! opps! hehe... and sorry sayang, as when i was in it, i forgotten ur presense.. hehe...

and yarh!! yesterday was just a pissing off day for me! my handphone just make me had a bad day.. no reception for no reasons!! and got scolding from my mom as she thought i switch off my handphone! arrghh!! second time already!! haish... nevermind.. patience! haish...

haish... k la.. better stop here! had a long and tiring day... need to get some rest! if not, if i have a fever for the next few days, i have to postponed my injection! no way! nights people! tata! (:

i hope you get better soon dear!
love you! (:
PS: i really hope u go towards ur aim...
i'm always supporting you...
i believe you can!

2007-11-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

yes my dear gyrls! i know! stop rubbing it in ok?!! if u guys wanna be like how i am now, that's strange because i dont want! my gosh! i know! i need to exercise! haish... my gosh! u guys are just freaking me out! please...! stop it! dont look at me like that again ok?! :(

so yea! today was so called the fun day for me! my gosh! i so the missing of my lovely ones.. still have 2more lovely ones that i have yet to meet! alalala... but seriously, it has been soooo longgg since i had that kind of laughter... i miss those times... haish... eventhough it was drizzling, but we still full with "motivation" to go up the hill... there we are, CT, Iqah and Noris.. climbing up that "pathetic" hill! nyahaha... so the noisy! hehe.. well, girls.. or i would say ladies! hehe.. and please CT! stop it! i knw i'm chubby now! but cute right?? hehehehe... baddy...! but seriously, i really miss those times when we're all having fun! haish... now that all have grown up... all seems to change... and i'm sorry if i do...

so yea.. school was release early today.. damn early!! 5groups in one hour?! how cool was that??! heheh... glad la shey! so went to meet CT 1st and then meet up with Iqah, finally Noris.. my gosh! i walked from CWP to the hill, damn tired la! but it was a good exercise for me! hehe... haish... but i wish for another moment like that again... i was laughing hard today.. great feeling!

oh yarh! i just knew that i dont need to really think much about the NTU track for now!! yeah!! next year then i'll consider it again... so i have like a year to think la shey! good goody! but i really wish to get into Uni la shey! my dream!! haish... so for now, study is my priorities la basically... i just love to try out new things that other family members or relatives never wanna try.. usually, i'm the first to try out the new things, then the juniors of my relatives will then follow my steps! sweets huh?! because my family is all about ompeting among one another in studies! (:

k la... i'm totally going off flat soon!! take care people! (:

-the moment of love that i miss for long-

&he knows what i want...
loves: 091107. 140607.

2007-11-27T12:45:00.000+08:00

teehhee!! here i am once again!! nyahaha... so sorry for not updating for long.. just a boring day i have.. school and then saturday and sunday went out.. but not much of things happened.. haish.. kind of bored with my life... and i hate my life... dont want to think about it la.. those who knows, knows la... those u dont know what had happened the last few days, nevermind.. it was just sucky... haish... well, first and formost, i would like to say sorry to iqah.. i have reserved a date for you gyrl! so please please make a free date on that day okok?? haish...

so yarh... my sis bought me a"twin" t-shirt!! hahaha..cute right she?? she bought one for herself and one for me.. but i just love hers! nyahaha... well, i guessed i have been kind heartened! i bought alot for my sis new things.. so she bought me that t-shirt! long-sleeved la basically... hehe... so yarh!! today didn't go to school.. simply lazy.. and that new faci just bores me more! she dont even know anything mind u! basically the same if she's not in the class facilitating us also... she's more like the student and we are the faci... nyahahaha... bad feeza! bad it is true ok!

yesterday went to my module selection briefing... my gosh! remids me of my secondary school days u know! remembered the time when i want to choose a subject combination in secondary 2 to go to secondary 3... it is the same sia! but then, this also reminds me in MI... whereby i want to choose Business stream and apply to go for the diploma course also at the same time when i am taking my A'level... the same sia! so in RP it is a combination for both! hehehe.... so my module selection now is either, a normal package or the NTU package.. was told that NUS only offered 60/90places whereas in NTU offered 300 places... haish... but then the NTU package requires alot of effort... yr2 major more on the core modules,only one la which is brought forward but yr3 the freely-chosen modules are more... haish... then i still have PP(Professional Profilling) which is like a project similar to DNT/F&N back then in secondary school... but then PP must be from an original country and have to present it to our mentors... haish.... so stress shey! year 3 then we start on our FYP.... i mean Final Year Project... oh man!! but lucky that being in this course is considered not bad as my career prospects are quite broad! hehehe...

oh yarh!! iwas quite pissed!! RP offered a new course!!! which is hotel and hospitality management under CIE... my gosh!! pissing off sia!! my friends also.. if only i'm from CIE! argh!! i'm in SAS!! haish... different schools.. if same school, maybe can sia!! haish... so unlucky... why never offer last year sia! so slow!! haish... and yarh! my cousin so excited in entering RP sia... he apply to RP-biomedical science EVEN before his O'level results is out!! nyahaha.. weird!! but nevermind.. i'll see him next year! same school mahx.... nyahaha.... but seriously, RP i have lots of long distance cousins and a few cousins but we seldom meet or talk.. because basically they are from my mom's side.. and i'm not close to them.. we rarely talk even.. hehe...

okok... i'll stop here for now!! before my mom nags again! hehe... oh yarh!! for those wuzun especially or farenheit fans, do watch Romantic Princess yarh!! i'm addicted to it now.. but just started watching it.. hehehe... and i'll recommend this just for IQAH!! iqah!! watch it if noris still have not tell you about it!! hehe...
sorry peeps.. i know my fault.. i'm bad... please give me time to reschedule everything... so sorry...

-and forever,i'll stay by yourside loving you..-

2007-11-20T19:20:00.000+08:00

[haish... this is what he always like to do whenever he's playing with my hp...taking photos...!!nyahaha!!]

so yea!! I'M SO PISSED WITH THE SCHOOL'S CONNECTION!!!!!! damn it sia!! and furthermore, i dont see any needs of going to school now... so pissed sia!! firstly, we can't use MSN which is like "tooot..."!! we can't communicate and can't get helped from friends! secondly, the connection is damn sux!! it is damn freaking slow! we can't do research!! what the heck right? tell me what is the usage of going to school and do powerpoint presentation when there is not much thing to be done... ?? it is damn bored! and everyone seems not to be happy with it!! we are using IM, eBuddy, webmessenger to communicate with the others... my gosh!! whole day in school trying to crack our brains in finding out our own solution... haish... and i think my bill is gonna shoot up again as i have been messaging alot due to the connection of the school now... haish...

then today a new faci came in, in replacement of my previous faci...haish.. she was NEW to RP! today was her first day of facilitation... haish... she was previously from NYP... seriously... why is it there is more and more new facilitator and they are actually from the other polytechnics or even fresh graduated from the universities... haish... damn it sia!! then today, the facilitator really like secondary way of teaching... we all finish class at around 3.45pm but then she said that we all cannot leave class unless at 4.30 as it is our standard time of releases.. then she only releases us at 4pm after much persuation... haish... not even much help for our problem today... it is like, she dont even know what she is supposed to do.. and the 6P is like only 5 minutes...!! can u believe that??!! have to endure for another 7more weeks!! haish...

went to lunch today...the bestest thing that i have ever heard in the canteen!! nyahaha!! there is this one foreigner student..he wants to buy mee siam... then the auntie from the stall could not figure out what he wants... cause he says, "Can i have mee sial?"... opppss!!! no offence!! nyahaha.... i pity him... but he knows how to describe it... seriously! he says that he likes that food... isn't that great?! he knows our malay types of food?i was impressed seriously!! a foreigner student!! and i think he is still new to the school as he seems not to be familirize to the school.. and that makes me wonder, what benefits i gain in RP and how did i end up being in RP...?? haish.... should i regret now?? i dont know.... =(

new aim: i came across a brochure that states more about my course at NTU!! i wish to get to NTU after graduation!! =D

and yarh!!was told by my friend to spread around this link:
ReDiviNe

so anyone who wanna shop online, can check them out... =D
taking care!!

he told me on 091107:
our love are made up of red and white...
(because red is his favourite colour and white is my favourite colour)
SWEETS!LOVES! =D
&those were the moments....

2007-11-18T01:15:00.000+08:00

stitch lover!! nyahahaha!! one is my sister's and one is mine!! =D

so yarh... it has been a few days since i last updated... let's start on wednesday yarh! i had to accompany my mom to the hospital.. haish... i know i know... so not me right??! well, i'm just worried for her.... but turned out that i meet my classmates at cwp when i was with him! "lucky" huh?! bad impression of myself! they might think i skip school and go dating..uh! whatever la! if they choose to believe what they see without knowing the facts, then it is ok with me... and thanks sayang for being there for me..:)

thursday went off to school... nothing much.. and so is yesterday... boredom!! but yesterday was just tired la shey! haish.. in fact a tiring week i've had after the one week break... haish... and my hair is quite long... should i cut?? haish.... so many things to think about la shey!! :(

well, i guess u guys must be wondering, why am i here damn early in the morning right?? well, because i'm having a bad stomache!! haish... and yarh!! thinking of deleting my friendster account..should i or should i not? if i delete it, this is my 5th time shey deleting... and so yarh... one of the photos are when i just bored waiting for my sister to watch her car! hahaa.. she insist on me not helping anyway... hahaha.... CHRISTMAS IS COMING! = that shows the christmas tree at cwp.. :P

k la... today is just another short entry... have to accompany my mom tomorrow to go out.. and before i get another scolding by my boyfriend for sleeping late again... well, in fact this few days, have been busy taking care of my mom... good girl la shey! heheh... well, sorry peeps for not going to go out with you guys.... next time ok?? i just have to be at home for the meantime... sorry! [i hope my mom will be okay... haish... :'(]

till death do us apart...

2007-11-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

farewell picture to our dearest A112 module.. :(
:: W35P ::

so yea! blogging today! heheh...nothing much basically.. had my injection... not really injection la.. vaccination yesterday.. hehe,... and now, it has gone blueblack! :S
poor me... haish... what to do... haish... that was only my 1st dose la shey! hish! and poor sayang, have to tolerate me.. hehe.. sorry sayang! (:

and today, my 1st test after the one week break, gosh! everything was lost la shey! nyahaha.... lucky for the first UT i got an A la shey! (: so tomorrow not going to school... had to accompany my mom... poor me... and after a few days, finally today get to eat my mom's cooking! and i just love the 'ayam masak lemak chilli padi'! wah! delicious la shey!! teehee! hehe...

honestly, i couldn't wait for the next break of school la shey!! hehe.. hopefully this time round can work la shey... please... haish... but time passed by so fast... after that i'm in year 2 already.. haish... that was fast! and today is the last day for my A112 faci to facilitate us... a bad day for us.. not everyone attended his class as we have a bad attendence anyway.. nyahaha... so yea... i also met my last semester's faci, and she also going to stop facilitating... haish.. WHY?!! :(

oh yarh! last sunday make a trip to bugis just for the talk... aiyo.. have been having sleeping disorder, still go bugis for the Youthentreprenuer talk... brought him along! haha...funny! nevermind about that,.. so yea! i was deadly tired la sia! i fall asleep in the bus on the way home.. but then so far, the last 2 days, i have been dead sleep! i could not even wake up for school.. got scolding from my mom for waking up late! oppss! bad feeza! well, what to do.. i a always bad... heheh...

my dear friend... i really hope u're fine... i've realised that i can't advice or help u in anyway... i can't advice people like i have used to... now i've realised, i've neglected so much to my life and my friends especially.. i remembered advising people who needs someone to console them... but now not anymore.. haish... i'm sorry peeps.. i'm terribly sorry... haish... anyway, i miss my peeps la!! peeps, i'm sorry ok? hope to meet up with u guys soon! (:

i'm addicted to my GREEN TEA!! I LOVE MY GREEN TEA LOTS!! :X

2007-11-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

Super Import Nights
The Ultimate Motorshow

so yea! i woke up 5am today AGAIN! i'm having sleeping disorder for days already! gosh! i hate that! so yarh.. woke up that early to eat! nyahaha! then after that supposed to go to sleep back as i have only 5hrs of sleep but then followed my mom to geylang.. wet market! haha... then my mom's friend followed, she told me i've become quite chubby! argh!! again!! people say i'm becoming more chubby sia!! need to exercise la shey! stress la shey!! poor me!!

then reached home in the afternoon like that.. after eating i slept! damn sleepy la shey!! i go geylang also like floating when i walked... seriously, i got a terrible headache la shey... then after 1hour of sleep, my brother so cute! he replied my msg after nearly 4hours, he msg me asking me where i am... but i went back to sleep cause i thought he was joking around... then after another hour of sleep, i went to ask my mom, if my brother knew that we're back home.. my mom say no! lol! he dont even knew his lil sister is in her room sleeping! isk2! so yea! around 4.30, went out again.. to the roadshow!! yeaheh!! so above are some of the pictures i've took! want to take a look at others, do ask me ok?! and i also HAVE THE VIDEO LA SHEY!! THE DRIFTING VIDEO!! (:

my gosh! it was damn good to see all those cars!! i run wild!n couldn't resist everything!! argh!! my dream car is also there la!! weeeweet!! hehe.... (: my brother aiming the Mitsubishi Evolution X... damn! he didn't meet the criteria needed... poor thing! but it was damn nice la shey!! hmm..?? k la.. i'll stop here for now... tired la! tmr i have to be at bugis and have some school stuff there! busy weekends...

i went up the hill on thursday.... no specific reasons.. just wanna relax my mind... A BAD DAY!! DONT WISH TO TALK ABOUT IT!

well, i think that my entry for each day is getting shorter and shorter and that i seldom update much like i've used to because i just dont have the time and nothing much to update... even if i do, i dont wish to post it here.. let it be a secret.. =p

i have a wonderful day yesterday! thanks sayang! loving you always.. (:
and sayang, thanks for making me speechless again and again without failed...

i wish baby boy happy birthday.. :)

2007-11-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

boohoo!! hehe... so yea! nothing much done today.. woke up late today due to the weather! it was rainning la beb! nyahaha...! take advantage of it! and then i woke up, my favourite breakfast! oh wah! that was good la beb! best tuesday morning! after that, i went to watch movies that i got from my friends in school...

i spent my whole afternoon watching:
1) Meet the Robinson.
2) Evan Almighty.
3) Resident Evil Extinction.
then in between, camwhoring myself! hahaha! was damn bored la shey! then edited it... :)
i have one last movie which is "my wife is a gangster 3"... my brother say is nice but dont allow me to watch... hahaha... take another advantage... :)

so yea! i ate alot today! nyahaha... this is me when i spent my day at home... sure ate alot! haish... poor me! thinking about it, i really need a job! read the classified, there's a few that i was kind of interested in but then think again, better not get another lectured from my mom... ish! but then my dad was okay with it... he even says his working place there's alot of jobs vacancy la shey!! hish!!

and yarh, heard that my brother dont wish to go for the chalet at Malaysia with my cousins all in December during my holidays, i can work la!! wee....!! and my mom allows... hopefully by then she still allows it.. in fact, my parents disallows us to go since they are disorganise... haish... will be another boring holiday for me again.. haish... by then also my mandarin class is up.. so kind of busy sundays for me.. haish...

so yea.. wonder what's my plan for tomorrow.. ?? hmm...??
any ideas peeps??
haish...

u're just making me thrilled over friday!! :)

2007-11-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

he just took my pix when i'm stress editing! hmph!

this is so unlike of me! he have chged my mindset! hahah... newly me maybe??

this is my bf's job! he just like to take my pix wheneva i'm eating! haish.

and only he knows how to love me without being told. :)

weehee!! holiday is here again! hahaha... something's not right with me today.. i was woken up by him of course! argh! nice weather to sleep u know! but then was ruined... thanks to him.. i woke up, watch a vcd and there i was, tidying up the whole house! honestly, it was so unlike of me of course la! sorry, to those who knows me, i was kind of lazy to do housework.. but today, i did every single thing! well, nobody at home of course! so i was kind of bored, and the house especially the kitchen was in a mess, so i thought of tidying it up.. good gyrl la.. heheh..

then iqah n noris sms me.. i was like half asleep.. haha... never knew tidy up the whole thing has really made me exhausted! nyahah... but then after that the plan is on and off, so in the end i have to help my mom cook.. haha.. and again, iqah n him laugh at me! argh! what's with that?! haish... if not, the three gyrls can get up to the hill.. where the memories and the secret lies... haish.. miss those days.. and i knew, i've neglected my friends alot! and i'm sorry k peeps.. really am! i promise to make up with u guys.. soon okok?! sometimes i'm confused also... haish... but rest assured, u guys are not forgotten... believe me this! u guys are the best la shey! but then the state i am going through now really needs some adjustments... haish...

so yea! i didn't manage to go find a job.. not that i dont want.. but then i was lectured and nagged by my parents, what else can i do right? haish... i really need a job la shey... :(

so yea! going to rot at home! and i just can't wait for the start of my mandarin class again! hehe.. i dont know why.. but i just couldn't wait la beb! hehe... but then need to buck up la.. i forgot lots of things la shey! being left behind! due to not revising.. even my sis is getting ahead of me.. but then she learnt by herself you know! the best thing about being a nurse.. isk2...

and seriously, i need to lose weight soon! or else i would have a rough time choosing my clothes to school!! hahaaha... HELP!! :( and thanks to him, i ate alot! aiyoyo!! :( EXERCISE NEEDED! :)

k la peeps! i'll update again tomorrow maybe or soon!
take care peeps!
LOTS OF MIIISSSSEEEESSSS AND LOOOOVVVEESSSS from me!

i am who i am because of you. :)
i can't wait for this friday but then at the same time i was kind of scared...

2007-11-03T00:21:00.001+08:00

i'm amazed with this new packaging for Famous Amos outlets! :D

promise me you would be happy for me?? =D

i'm just being myself. not happy with it? BACK OFF!!

just a random gift for my sis...

well, yea!! the one week is here!! my gosh!! have been waiting for this moment! haish.. but then planning to work.. by hook or by crook, i would really want to work!! no matter what!! my bill is really killing me! haish... in need of work now...

well, school was kind of alright for me la... so far have been going for the whole week... heheh... but have been going home late.. heheh... but seriously! i really need a work sia!! and yarh... believe me.. i hate science.. haish... i've been getting a consistent C sia! what the heck sia! fine! guess i've not been putting in much efforts huh?! fine.. next yr, full of science module for me.. poor thing.. haish.. and yarh so... nothing much to be done for this whole one week of holiday.. like pathetic 1 week right?? haish.. poor thing la being an RP student.. hehe...

so yea! alot have been asking where have i disappeared to.. nyahahaha... i've gone missing la! poor thing.. i think i've neglect my friends... need to pay back those times la shey... miss those times too.... :( but before that, i need to pay back my "debt" 1st.. i cannot use my parents money to pay my bills la.. but how?? that lazines in me is always there.. haish.. kk.. need to change my mindset la.. haish...

anyone have any job vacancies?? haish.. poor thing!! i have a few recommendation on fnb, but then iqah wouldn't want that.. haish.. heard from my friend it is quite difficult, furthermore, they priorities the 'N'Level and 'O'Level students.. haish....we'll see how... haish.. if not, then i have no choice but to choose the fnb work... :(

furthermore, i think i need to do a bit of shopping as my clothes are all seems not to be fit on me already! hhahahaha... those who knows, get what i mean la ehk... i think i really need to get something done la shey.. if not, i'm so dead shey! all say similar thing shey.. scary la beb! isk!!but my bf seems to like it.. haha... weirdo! well, weirdo couples.. what to do.. and iqah.. please do inform me how you want it to be ok gyrl? i'll msg u how la later okok??

so i'm going to do some survey tomorrow and here i am still updating my blog.. hehe... sorry for not updating frequently... have not been having some time to update my blog.. furthermore, everyday i go through the same thing... go to school everyday.. do homework.. never even go out.. therefore, didn't really get to update it.. so update when i have the time..

oh yarh! saying about that.. i went to orchard last sunday with my bf but with a disappointment.. i was supposed to get my RP card that i applied as u know, i love to collect any cards that i have.. but then was told to re-register! haish!! so end up we watched movie at Orchard Cineleisure(the Seeker).. honestly, until now, i dont really get the show.. hahaha... wasted right? haish...

"apakah hikmah disebalik setiap pertemuan itu dan mengingati ku kembali pada zaman silam ku?!"
haishhhh....

Happy birthday to the "babygyrl[28.10]" and "sis[31.10]" and in advance to "babyboy[10.11]"... hope they have a wonderful years ahead of them and always be blessed in everything that they do..(only syg knows who i'm referring to..:x) on 31.10 the most speechless and scariest day for me.. thanks to my bf.. hahaha..

we believe it will last forever!=D

2007-10-27T11:00:00.000+08:00

well, i seem to have nothing to do today..
start off the day by writing an entry in my blog..
hehe...

well, firstly i have to apologise to those who do not know about the password to my blog. well, basically i want to have a break on public about my blog. so sorry about that.. i need a time of my own..

so yesterday i didn't go in class...
something happen to my laptop..
so kind of spending my day in the IThelpdesk..
haish...
the library was quite cold for me..
actually i planned not o go to school yesterday as i wasn't feeling well but end up still have to go to school..
the laptop could not even appear the start up screen...
how bad could that be right?? hehe...
but with the company of my boyfriend, it was simply fine for me.. hehe...
but it was boredom la...
imagine in the library for like 2-3 hours..
gosh!!

then i didn't go home straight...
we went to Lot 1 and ate pizza there! hahas...
for the first time i ate pizza as in dine-in...
furthermore with him...
wah!! it was the best thing la...
and as i am waiting for a pizza treat from either one of them (you-know-who-you-are)..
they are waiting for my seoul garden treat...
haish...
nevermind..SOON! :)

oh yarh!! there's a family virus going on at home...
every member in my family is sick.. and so am i...
hehe...
oppss! so everyone took MC...
except for me...
i seem to get better a bit after yesterday! :X
hahas.. being with him, just makes me feel better?? hmmm....

u're really making me speechless dear boy!
please tell me this is the last.

2007-10-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

harith syafiq (nephew)

siblings camwhoring! hahas.

putri nursafirah, the photographer wannabe! (:

syaza.me.iqah.noris.

iqah.me.rusy.

i take a look at that newspaper again... his words are always in my mind.. i'll never forget how he actually lectured me with those words... his dreams are shattered.. i feel so bad.. now i have realised something that is too late.. i still remembered how he actually tried to get me to understand what i need to know.. i'm feeling guilty of how actually i reacted... haish.. but then nothing can be done... whatever it is, it has happened... no matter how much i feel bad towards him, he can never be brought back.. hanya doa yang ku dapat sedekakan doa bagiNya.. harap-harap dia ditetapkan dengan yang lain di dalam syurga... Amin...

haish.. and all the more, i feel so bad.. i feel the guilt in me.. it is a huge burden for me.. i have always hope it didn't happen... i have always feel that i could turn back time... i really hope that this all have not happened... haish... i know i shouldn't feel that way.. i know i should accept what has been set by HIM... haish... this is what i have always going against! sorry.... seriously, no offence...! please to those who wants or have been the desire of motorbikes, please do drive carefully! the one who suffer the most is the loved ones okok... if u think u want fun, is it fun to see the people around us to be hurt?? is it fun to see the people around u to shed tears and then u only know u have hurt them?? be wise in ur thinking... be a sensible person..!

and this hari raya, most of the people around me have been spending their money on medical expenses due to having accidents... is it worth it?? seriously?!! at least once u guys are gonna feel the pain.. drive safely please... haish..

days have been tiring for me.. i just hate my days this few days... but then i suffer this myself alone.. especially not to let my love one to know... seriously! i really hate someone to gain sympathy just for the sake of themselves! someone who really think of themselves and let others to suffer!! damn it sia!! who they think they are!! dont even want to appreciate what they had and want others to suffer and gain everything to themselves! i'm feeling so exhausted!! tired of all this moments that i've gone through! damn it! why can't people just be grateful by what they have? and give others the chance? we're only be temporary in this world.. why not sacrifice just a bit for the sake of others?! gosh!

have been sleeping late at night.. have been reaching school on the dot (which late for me).. haish.. last sunday my nephew and my niece came.. gosh! those two little ones are just adorable and they just spice up my day... hahas... super damn cute! i cannot even take it sia!! heheh..

last but not least, i have to start exercising sia!! thanks to those who have been saying i'm getting chubby! haish... i can't be chubby!! never!! hahas... haish... feeza is starting to get lazy!! everyone have been saying that... oppss!! must be my boyfriend la!! hahaha... dont be angry huh sayang! hehe... one more week of school and then holiday! wee...!! holiday one week but still it was alright! hehe... then my injection day coming up... haish...

why is it, it is so hard to leave the past?? why is it, when i have managed to leave and forget the past, it came back without me wanting it..?? why is it, when i dont even looking and hoping, it cane to me, it reminds me of it.. haish... i just have one hope for now; be happy with what i have now and forget whatever is in the past... noone will get hurt then...

12,13 or 14?? which one should i choose a date for my injection day?? hehe.. i thought of 14 would be nice since it is my most memorable number... hehe.. :X but what do u guys think?? hmm...

i love you
enough said!

2007-10-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

sister lurp! (:

we're the green sisters on the 1st day of raye... haish...

hey peeps!! sorry for not udpating for such a long time!! busy la beb... hehe... anyway, my week for this week has full of ups and downs.. test on tuesday and thursday... and yarh... wednesday was my dad's birthday.. it was considered as a bad day for me on that day.. i kind of pissed off... haish.. those who knows know la ehk... so yarh.. nothing much as i lead a boring week.. wasn't feeling well this week... but hey!! it was great to have lunch or breaks with my friend!! especially today!! hahas... so yarh... nothing much to update.. seems to have forgotten what i've gone through the past weeks...

yesterday was another bad day.. i was team up with a group of guys.. all guys.. being the rose among the torns! hahas.. seriously! it was not as good as what u think... the guys began to play games.. but the ending was kind of scary for me... SERIOUSLY!! and it happened again today... haish...

so yarh.. have to make a decision for tomorrow and sunday.. haish.. what to do sia.. alot of plans coming up.. haish... k la peeps.. till here then.. so long!! missing u guys!! take care okok?!! haish...
wanna wish all my friends all the best in whatever papers u guys are taking for the major exams okok?!!
i'm counting down to my RP holiday... 2more weeks... and the tests are just killing me! haish.. poor thing! :(

**i hope she's fine...**

2007-10-14T17:45:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!! =)

so far so good la beb! i love ytd! it was damn funny! and for the first time i've broken the record for myself! i slpt at 2.30 am on the 1st day of raya as i have to clean up the house! i have cleaned up the whole living room all by myself.. of course i have to ask help for the sofa la.. hahas... first time, i'm hyper for that sia! after school usually i'll get tired.. but then i ate ice cream(McFlurry)

to energise me up! hah!~ that was what that keep me awake the whole night! hahas..

early morning get scolding by my mom,.. she thought i slept whole night soundly.. haish..but still i woke up 1hour later.. hehe.. cannot open up my eyes la si! hahas.. when my mom get to know i slept at 2.30 am, get another scolding.. aiyo! what have i done sia! hahas... alala... then another scolding by my dad as he says i didn't help in the housework as he didn't know i helped. furthermore, he slept at 11pm.. that's why.. haish.. then another scolding for helping my bro in cleaning up his room.. haish.. wonderful 1st day of raye huh?? haish... but it was not really a scolding la.. just to tease me.. heheh...

then got "attacked" by my cousins.. hahas.. they came to our house in a big group.. isk! went to grandmother's house... went home at around 9pm.. i was like half asleep sia! cannot take it.. went home also 11pm then sleep! hahas... then today, got another "Attacked" by my cousins.. got a shocked that my cousin saw me outside with my boyfriend.. waliao!! make a major announcement sia!! damn! lucky my parents never hear what my cousin say about what he knows.. haish.. sian! furthermore today is my special day sia!! 141007!! damn!! maybe going out at night.. and maybe tomorrow not going school.. it all depends! haish...

last but not least... SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE! MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN! =D
jangan lupe datang umah ye.. hehe.. and yarh.. segala salah & silap atau terkasar bahasa, harap maafkan la ye.. feeza pon manusia jugak.. kesilapan tidak boleh dielakkan.. dan pada sesiapa yang saya selalu menyusahkan atau membuat korang marah atau tersinggung, maafkan la saya... halalkan makan dan minum saya ye... (:

PS:update the pictures soon! =)

*i live in fear and i need u to cover up those fears and let me live in freedom!*

2007-10-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

alala...cute right?? i meant the elmo! hehe..

elmo peekaboo at my lappy!! nyahaha!! :p

hey peeps!! tomorrow is raya la shey! hahas.. happy la shey!! :)
so i'm gonna take this opportunities to say SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEEPS!
maaf zahir & batin ye... maaf la kalau ada salah dan silap.. fyza nie kn naughty jugak.. hehe.. halalkan la makan minum saye ye.. hehe,... jangan lupe datang rumah saye ye.. hehe.. :)

so yea!! in school now but my mind is completely at home.. alala... they are alot of things left to be done.. i think i'm not going to sleep sia tonight! watching tv! hahas.. bad feeza... get to know alot of my peeps are going geylang to buy last minute stuffs.. hahas.. and so my faci invite as to his house next week... nyahaha... thinking of going but it DEPENDS! (:

well, today school is replanned! the break time was totally different and so is the meeting time duration.. haish... woke up late today.. daddy send to school.. alala... and then waited for my friends till 9am.. first time ever i came around this time.. it was all because of the grouping.. hahas... well, school was SUPPOSEDLY finish at 3pm.. but because my faci went for friday prayers, he reached class at around 2pm and we finished at 3.30pm.. it was kind of fast.. only the "takeaway" time was kind of long la.. the presentation was only 5minutes to each team.. one slide each! yea!! dont believe huh? each group 1 slide with a mindmap in it la.. (:

the last few days were just an ordinary day in an ordinary school.. have nothing to write basically! bore! and furthermore, i'm just simply lazy! nyahaha! but then was not feeling quite well la.. haish.. nevermind! the thought of hariraya just makes me enlighted! hahas.. and those peeps who are having problems, cheer up kk?? i'm here for u guys anytime and anywhere!! cheer up dearies!! (:

seems to have alot of things to be done! so i'll stop here! things are much better for me now as in my days off school! hahas... i still hate school till now! i feel i dont belong there! haish.. anyway, i'm glad i found some wonderful peeps in RP! (:

and yarh peeps!! next week onwards, lunch break together kk?!! hehe.. misses u guys much much!! muackz muackz!! and other than that, i'm glad i'm still in contact with my old peeps... i mean as in "old".. heheh.. nevermind about that! see ya around peeps! (:

i'm happy and that's it!!
tomorrow and sunday! will be the most memorable dates ever!! (:

to my love: only we know how it is to go through much and still we tried so hard to stay on...=) thanks! (:

2007-10-08T14:30:00.000+08:00

thanks to iqah.. she tagged me! hahas... ENJOY READING!=)

Layer 1: On the outside
Name: Nur Hafizah known as Feeza or fyza
Birth date: 060390
Current status:In a relationship (happy with it!=D)
Eye colour:brown
Hair colour: brown (natural color)

Layer 2: On the inside
My heritage: Malay
My fears: for me to know is for u to find out..=p
My weaknesses: hmm... figure out urself!
My perfect pizza: Hawaiian pizza

Layer 3:Yesterdae, Today, Tomorrow
My first thought of waking up: can i go back to sleep again..??
My bed time:anytime i feel like sleeping
My most missed memories: my past!!!

Layer 4: My pick
Pepsi or coke: None of the above. i dislike gasy drinks unless no choice..
Single or group dates: depends on situation..
Adidas or Nike:both! but most preferrable NIKE!=)
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate!! white chocolate especially!=)
Cappucino or coffee: NONE!

Layer 5:Do You?
Smoke:NO!!
Curse: hmmm...??
Take a shower:OF COURSE!!
Have a crush:HMMM...??
Go to school:obviously!!
Believe in yourself: depends..

Layer 6: In the past
Drink alcohol:OF COURSE NOT!
Gone to the mall: well, duh!!
Dyed your hair: nope...

Layer 7: Have you ever..?
Played a stripping game:no...!
Change who you were to fit in:maybe??

Layer 8:Are you hoping to
Get married: yea!! at around 25 or 26??

Layer 9:In a partner
Best eye colour:anything that suits him!
Best hair colour:anything that suits him!!
Long or short hair:anything that suits him! NEAT!

Layer 10: What were you doing
A minute ago: doing this thingy!
An hour ago:just woke up from my sleep! hahas..
A month ago:couldn't remember! STM larh... hehe...
A year ago:sec4... busy with school??

Layer 11: Finish the sentences
I love: everything that belongs to me and everyone around me!
I hide:things that are meant to be kept especially if it might hurt others.
I miss: memories! my peeps! and syg! =)
I need: whatever i need...?? happiness??

Layer 12: TAG 5
anyone who happens to read this? =)

2007-10-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

I'M SO HAPPY TODAY!!!!!!!!
noone knows how i felt today!! only God knows!! i never did expect that everything wasn't bad afterall!! so yea!! my parents knew about my relationship already... seriously! i never thought my mom would say that.. i dont know if my dad already know.. but i hope he dont mind too... hahas.. bad fyza!! woohoo!!

a few more days to RAYA!!!
weee...!
can't wait beb!!
and iqah!! let's play!! let's play!! can't wait!!
yay!!
take care peeps!!
i'm so tired today!! i put up all the curtains of the whole house sia!! my gosh!! soo tired!! than i kept falling asleep at the sofa after everything is up, get scolded by my mom! hahas.. must help to cook la! haish... then my hp also can't stop beeping! damn! stop msging la! hehe.. just kidding! then whoever watch warna ramadhan just now, that was the episod that me, my sis n my mom happen to be there! lucky our blur faces are not there! hahas.. LUCKY SIA!! if not, so the paiseh! hehe..

kk...
too happy that i just can't stop being lame and crazy here! hahas...
sorry peeps to thsoe who are affected! hehe...
talk to me now is better than the previous days right?? hehe...
i hope it last long!! heheh....
moodswings being washed away!!
thanks for those who have been with me and gone through my hard days!
so sorry if i might have affected u guys in a bad way!
take care!!=)
yay!!! bubbye!! =)

2007-10-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

went JB today! heheh.... woke up as early as 6am... didn't fast today... last day.. haish... so damn tiring!! end up falling sick at night.. get scolding from my boifren... opps! okok dear.. i'll eat my medicine okok? haish...

i went JB with my parents and my anuties! hehes.. very packed arh the car! we drove using my dad's car when we initially intend to drive with my sis "cute" car! hahas.. so yarh, 1st stop at Pasar Tani (hope i get it right, it is basically a market la.hee).. walked and walked like not fasting like that.. hehe.. and then next stop at Pasar Larkin! wee...!! Love that place! hahas... only me, iqah n noris know why! hehe... bad feeza! :x

next stop at Giant which known to be Xtra previously! bought sushi! weee...!! my favourite!! hish! i bought alot sia! hahas... and then off we go!! lucky the custom was clear!! fuh!! that was close! back home by 1pm... and then all went off for a nap in the living room after everything finished cleaning up! my hp couldn't stop beeping for msges! eerrggh! and sorry for late reply peeps! hahas.. didn't mean to...

i get to know my cousin have chosen RP in biomedical science! damn! i just can't runaway from my cousins to be in the same school sia! and then furthermore my cousin, he really like RP.. my gosh!! help me sia! run run!! hehe... now i really have no freedom! hish! i really hope he could get into JC arh! haish..

5more days to raya!! weee..!! can't wait!! hehe... and plan not to come on the friday... but my faci says he would release us early as he have to cook for raya also! hahas! i ask my mom, she say good la... can help her cooked! hahas.. still considering! opps! =D

061007 the shocking day... @ Pasar Tani...
the moment that i've been waiting for nearly the past 4years before i met my boifren...
everything has been left behind for good reasons...
but it came back when i've finally moved on...
it happened at a place that i least expect such miracle would happened..
the moment i saw, i felt as if time have stopped...
i felt as if my heart skipped a beat..
MEMORIES FLASHBACK!
what i saw have just made it worse! MEMORIES! DAMN!
but 1 thing for sure.....
i'm not who i am previously...
i belong to someone...
and that is not going to change the actual fact of it!
nothing is going to change it unless it is fated!
the past is the past... what's past MUST not affect the present and neither the future!
*GOOD opportunities only comes once. if it is let GO, no point looking back!*
eversince i have made a decision to let others in, i have to learn to let go of the rest...
if we believe in fate, believe what that is already near/in front of u...
if u dont even notice what is near/in front of u and keep looking at the others, u might never find the right one...
at this moment, fear came to me...
"what if it is the end and i lose u forever??"
"all we were left for memories are those gifts, the video that i've made and the memories that we had..."
"can we lived like we used to if those were left and knowing u weren't by my side anymore??"

2007-10-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

moodswings!
this week is a moodswing week for me... i'm sorry for those who have been a victim for me.. so sorry peeps and also to u syg! haish... bad feeza! seriously! i have never been this bad before.. think it is due to the environment and PMS... DAMN! haish... even at times, i cried for no reason! DAMN! so yeah.. so far, i've been dragging myself to school.. i woke up early, get to school quite late when other people think it is quite early.. well, feeza have never tried to be late before unless meeting of friends.. hehe... those who have been going out with me, know la.. hehe.. sorry... feeza need a time management with friends la... but school was ok with me! hehe... damn! school was a bore to me! skipped class on monday and how united it can be.. only 9 students left in the class.. hah! so yea.. monday and today is relief faci.. haish.. went to Jurong East library.. met him for awhile.. sorry shidah about that.. hehe.. then he have to go for soccer.. haish.. GUYS just couldn't live without soccer huh?! haish.. so yea! i'm just counting down to the days when i'm free... to the days that everything is back to how i want it to be...

oh gosh!! can this moodswings be over soon! it is driving me crazy!! and it is scaring me! please, i dont wish to lose someone i truly madly deeply in love with!! haish.. today was just another bad day for me! honestly, moodswings just makes my day sux! aarrgghh!! feeza fyza... fasting month!! isk!!

yesterday my hp bill came!! my gosh!! i nearly broke down sia!! it was my worse pay ever!! wonder how i should explain to my parents when they knew about it.. haish... sure hp confiscate! die! it is increased by $10 from the previous month sia!! haish.. feeza need to cut down... help me!! hahas...

has been 2 nytes, i didn't get to sleep! my gosh!! i walked as if i wasn't touching the ground and that i wasn't walking in a straight line! i can sense that i'm falling soon! my gosh!! if this goes on, i dont know what's going to happen to me sia! DAMN!! and i have enough of tears to spare! my eyes are quite puffy in the morning.. hope no one notices that.. haish... I'M IN NEED OF HELP!!

i'm addicted with this phrase:

i hate it when i love u so!
i can't stand it when i need u so!

*taken from a song... i forgot the title! hahas!opppss!*

i miss u so!
i really need u here with me syg...
how i wish u can be by my side every single minute i spent... haish...

2007-09-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!another tiring day! i went jurong today! hahas... yeah! wondering still, i dreamt of what to go down to jurong huh?! isk2... so yea... met him for a while.. haish.. then went home.. nothing much today... went home, my gosh! damn tiring! i nearly faint on the way home sia! damn scary! so yea! nothing much happened today. just that it was my first time gitu to be at jurong. and it seems so weird for me! hahas.. and i took 187 which reminds me in memories of 178.. nyahaha... then memories of MI! haish...

yesterday went to geylang with iqah... alot of people sia! isk2... and then what surprise us is that we walked throughout geylang and it only took about 2 hours only.. haish.. unlike when i was with my mom and sis the other time.. so weird! but we kind of pissed off with one of the makcik there! i dont wish to say it here.. it just pissed me and iqah off... hehe... so yea.. as usual, once went out with iqah, i would tend not to buy anything.. isk2... feezafyza... sorry ye iqah... well, nothing much to say... i have been writing long entries.. so have been spared for this two days.. i'm just tired! need a rest!

take care peeps!
i really miss u guys alot!!!!!
haish...

2007-09-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

the twin sisters! =D

orange and red sister!
pre-hari raya night

the purple hari raya baju kurung that i've bought!

sister love! (seat-belt disturbance)

damn it! this is the 2nd time i'm writing this entry! aarrgghh! i totally forgot what i wanted to write for this entry! haish.. bad connection in school! DAMN! so yea! yesterday went shopping! first time went shopping with my sis and mom! gyrlz day out sia! hehe.. so yea! yesterday was simply a great day! it might be a tiring day but it is simply great sia! i love yesterday eventhough there's still some unfairness with certain things, i tried to stay as calm as i am.. haish... so went home quite late that i have trouble waking up today.. hahas... and i had a worse day of the week today! damn!

yesterday's first stop was at Joo Chiat Complex! so called our "unlucky" day.. hahas.. we met the Warna Ramadhan people, the game that they played... well, in the first place, i saw a group of guys running towards our area, me, my mom and my sis have no idea there's a camera man behind! hahas..so with our blur look, it get caught in the camera!LOL! well, i even have the taught of "why the heck is this people running here!".. hahas... till i saw those camera man and the main host then i realised! hahas... and then after "Escaping" from those cameras, met the gyrlz team! oh man! me and my sis, cannot take it! my mom just wants to walk there! hahas! so off we go to the bazaar after knowing that everywhere we go, we will be meeting those actress/actors! but still! we still bumped into them at Tanjong Katong Complex! hahas...

so yea! it was rainning yesterday! it is slippery and muddy! yucks! eeuuww! so yea! had our break fast at the hawker center at the Geylang wet market! wah! the place is totally packed sia! just ate simple foods.. seriously, break fast at homw is much more better than break fast outside! isk! end up at home, i ate more! hahas... so yea! brought a bag, 2 baju kurung-one orange and the other is purple! thought of going to buy one more green kebaya! isk! but see how la..

oh yarh! before i forget! yesterday was kind of disturbed by this couple at the boutique shop that my sis bought her raya clothes! the gyrl seriously! VERY FUSSY!!!!! she tried all the colours of the same type of kebaya!! my gosh! i pity the guy sia!! the guy is just speechless i think.. and that out of comments! i think the guy is shy as me and my mom kept looking at them! as the gyrl is really really FUSSY!!!!! my gosh!! if i were the guy, i might have just get angry and left her sia! she uses size 'S' and it is really tight fitting! she wants to have size 'XS'! my gosh! i tell u, it is gonna get too tight or might just get burst! hahas! bad feeza! but it is true! she can only wear it once! u imagine, my sis is done with her clothes, they are still choosing! the gyrl simply can't get enough of it! she even ask her guy to try his clothes at other place as she wants to look at the mirror! isk2! temper u know! but who am i right to get angry? hehe...

14 more weeks to the end of semester! can i just skip everything through?!

i'm not feelin gwell for like a few days already.. haish...

love sick! hahas... isk2.. just kidding!

but could be true! hehe...

last wednesday my boyfriend met my cousin! opps! sorry!

as usual my cousin send me home till the lift as he scared something might have happened to me as he heard stories about the bad things near my area.. haish... then met my neighbour which is also my previous ex-schoolmate.. my gosh! he thought my cousin is my boyfriend! LOL!but i dont wish to clarify it anyway.. no point! my neoghbour doesn't mean anything to me! =D

kk..gtg...take care peeps!

busy weekends ahead for me!

thanks for those who are concerned and have been there for me!

loves and misses! =D

2007-09-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

damn it!! i'm so not in any mood today!! just one thing to say : I HATE SCHOOL!! can i just quit school? i just like the friends i've made and the WONDERFUL faci (W35A) but not the system of the school and might be the environment! it is damn pissing me off! each day i really had a hard time going to school! honestly, i do like being as a poly student rather than being an A'level student but not RP! people can bet on me that i can adapt to the school system... i still remember those who give me encouragement throughout when i get RP etc... thanks so much! i miss those days whereby everything seems to be on the right track.. the things at home can be said that it is great but at times i HATE it when unreasonabel situation happens at home! why is it always me?!! just what did i do sia!! eerrgghh!! thanks to those who cares and thanks for being there for me peeps! i really appreciate it! i really miss u guys sia!! haish... i miss those days that i can enjoy myself no matter how stressed up myself with situation.. is it me who have neglect with u guys due to the status i am? i'm sorry k guys if that's the reason why... haish...

so yarh... kind of packed for my schedule this week, today going break fast outside.. so i have to do my RJ and homework to the soonest! haish.. before that i have talk! tiring day! then tomorrow i might not go to school as i have other plan! my mom ask me whether i want to go school or not! weird right?! yeah! taking the opportunity for it! hehe... if i go to school also, maybe by break 2 i'll be going home! it would be troublesome by then! SHOPPING is better than going to school... it is damn irritating! it is really hurting to pretend i'm ok when i'm not! i'm so tired of tears! not only that, i HATE people who like to gain pitiness from others and NEVER grateful!! pissing off sia!!

saturday going out with iqah! wee..!! going geylang! happy la si! miss her so much!! she went for attachment.. wonder how it goes! hehe.. then sunday maybe going jurong west! hehe.. so great!! alalala...

only 2nd week of school and i'm already in no mood.. haish.. what the heck... haish...
kk...
think i'll stop here!
i dont know what to say..
everything seems to be forgotten! hehe...
busy chatting la.. what to do! hehe...

take care peeps!
missing u peeps!
and yarh, keep me updated okok?!

2007-09-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

*we locked our memories of loved deep in our hearts!*

fyza's stop today is at TOWN!! hahas.. it is simply cool!!=) finally, i get my new mp3!!! woohoo!! lucky was on my side today!! lucky i brought along the newspaper article that have the offer, if not, i have to buy the mp3 ONLY @ $129.. with the newspaper, i could get a free leather pouch worth $45, a free sticker stick on worth $5 and also the adapter at a special price all @ $129!! my gosh!! can u see the difference?? haish.. thanks to my brother!! wee..!! so imagine from Plaza Singapura me and my brother walked to HMV! haish.. it was a very hot weather! fasting month somemore!! alahai.... exhausted man!! and than when we reached at HMV, outside, they have Singtel offer that they give away free ice cream!! fuh!! very the tempting!! haish... patience! bought alot of new shows!! japanese shows!! horror movies!! simply loving it man!! alalala..... after everything, was damn tired!! reached home, have to send foods to neighbours!! alahai... my brother already fallen asleep in the MRT! hahas.. he just came back from night shift just now morning... so yarh.. bad feeza... insist on wanting that mp3... have to make a lot of sacrifices! then in the MRT, i was just about to fall asleep but was disturbed by the couple in fron of me and my brother... MEMORIES! haish...

well, today was just nice!! and my week for this week, is simply packed!!have quite a few of plans... hopefully everything goes well... haish... possibly 2 times i'll be breaking fast outside and hopefully my parents allow... alahai... so yarh! this week is the 2nd week of school...sian! first day science!! poor me!! haish... 3 days going home late due to the talks i'm attending!! waliao! sian arh! tiring week for me!!but i just dont believe that now is already the 2nd semester.. 2nd year soon!! haish... how time flies.... poor thing....

well, i wont update that much la for this few days... not that i lazy... just that, nothing much to say.... life has been bored for me!! how i wish i could turn back time! but family at home have been cheerful... only that my sis have been acting the "pity" one as always... hish! then again, we have to give in to her! lucky fasting month! patience! hehe... well, k la... that's all i wanna say.. stop her for now!! and I MISS EVERYONE!! esp u syg!! haish... ytd, met CT and Izza my closest friend since pri sch... not as crazy as how we used to be.. all seems to have problems.. poor me, i have to console them and advice them.. poor me... everything i have to go through... hopefully i advice them the right thing! hehe.... feeza fyza.... well, i aint a perfect gyrl... and i aint God who can makes things better right? haish.. i have my own problems but i just let it be... because i know, it is not what i want.. i have to go through it... and i try to make things better by myself... dont wish to trouble others... haish... anyway, TAKE CARE MY DEARIES!! LOTS OF MISSES AND LOVES FROM ME!! =D

2weeks....!!
heartpain! tears shed!! nobody knows how i feel now...
unexplainable feelings.... haish...

2007-09-22T18:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOMMY!!!
WEE...!!!

so yeah! finally today is saturday! totally lovable man!! i woke up late today! heheh... my mom also understands... alala... surprisingly, nearly everyone in the family have forgotten my mommy's birthday! hahas.. so bad! but lucky i remind everyone.. isk! in fact, i knew it last minute. lucky i have planned today.. hehe.. lucky beb! so yarh... went to an-nur mosque early in the afternoon.. went off with my sis early as to find some gifts for my mom... my brother paid the cake! heheh... me n my sis share the gifts! heheh... brought for my mom a bag which she has been eyeing for long! i love to see her reaction when she get those gifts! hahas... damn cute sia! isk2... loving it! now a month's time my dad's birthday coming up.. haish.. i always have trouble to buy for my dad's birthday present! always! haish.. i guess guys just have difficulties in buying a present! anyone have any ideas?? alahai... but for my mom's birthday celebration will be postponed as today everyone is working... haish... my dad's birthday celebration will surely be celebrating out! no eating at home! provided everyone is not working la... that is what happened the past few years celebrating his birthday!! hehe... anyway, my dad's birthday will be during hari raya!! wee...!! simply loving it!!

so yarh!! yesterday for the very first time, i find it interesting to do the powerpoint presentation! hahas... really man!! that guy in my group.. he's very the friendly towards me! i wonder why.. and when i'm in the same group as him, he was very happy! hahas... opps!! dont get me wrong! lol!

and yarh!! yesterday was also the day i finally get to be in contact with my primary school friend! my gosh!! it has been so long sia!! the last time i met him was like in the year 2003! hahas... he has totally changed! i was surprised to meet him at RP! fuh!! i was happy sia!! i remembered when i was in primary school, he was like an arrogant guy... he even like to tease me on things and always want to end up arguing with me! but yesterday i chat with him, he was very friendly! hahas... a little reunion! heheh.. hope to get in contact with the rest of the primary school peeps man!! i totally miss them so!! haish... but i doubt so most of them still remembers! hahas...

yesterday's module simply sucks! i hate it! i dislike the faci! dont get me wrong that i'm being biased or what... he's a malay(i think) as his name is unlikely a malay.. it is just that i dislike the way he teach us.. and the way he looked at us... he likes to stare people down as if we have done wrong! maybe it is still too early to judge him but if anyone of you who knows me, i judge people based on first impression... and i believe in my instincts... maybe i'm wrong towards this faci of mine... but towards others, it is different... haish... fasting month!! have to be patient... hehe.... so far so good...=)

it has been 10days since the fasting month..
it has been 10days!! i miss u so syg!! haish... ='(

2007-09-20T13:20:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!! i'm back!! hehe.. in school but still blogging! gosh!! i dont believe i'm in this kind of class!! it was so damn QUIET!! i need live to the class please!! haish.. so yea... trying hard to adapt to the new class.. poor little me! hahas... well, so far so good when i'm in school... first day was science... same group with my previous classmate (w35A), Nora... gosh!! lucky for me in the first day.. heheh... but science just makes me bored! hahas... oh man! but end up getting a B.. think it is because it is only the first week and the first problem.. haish... have to buck up soon la gyrl! hahas... still trying hard to adapt such environment... hopefully soon! it is nice to get to know some of the malay peeps in the class! this time round, the malay peeps are more than my previous class..wee..!!

first day to attend class, there's a few students.. i was wondering where to sit.. and before that i was about to go to my previous class... got lost on my first day... how wonderful is that! hahas.. first day already miss my previous class.. alahai... hehe... can still get lost at my own block for the 2nd time.. hahas.. what to do... same level only different class... haish... it has been one week of fasting and so far so good.. things are much better at home... no more conflict and happy moments! yay!!

well, basically today nothing much to do or write...
i hope that the problems get easier as days goes by.. which is IMPOSSIBLE!!
so far the problem for week 1 is quite difficult...
haish...
i just hope tomorrow will be a better day!=)

new friends are LOVED! =D

2007-09-16T14:35:00.000+08:00

haish...today will be the last day of my holiday.. 4th day of the fasting month.. how fast time flies right?? haish... i'm so not looking forward for tomorrow... new class.. new faci.. and even new environment...such a boring thing.. haish... so yarh, my busy days start tomorrow!! no more hanging around, no more freetime, no playing of games... haish... so damn bored lor!! haish.. furthermore it is the fasting month... poor little gyrl! hahas...

the last few days of fasting month was kind of great la! for a weird case for me... i began to be so hardworking.. haha... think because i'm bored! last friday night, i even suggest a night mini outing.. haish... bad feeza! well, actually nothing much.. just go out to send my sis to work on her new car! and she drives.. so yarh! my sis getting good about it! hehe... looks like raya this year i can choose among 3 cars to ride on! heheh.. but my mom kind of sad if i dont want to ride on my parents car.. haish.. so end up no choice... alahai... after that my brother ride on my sis car, it was his first time ride on an auto driven car.. scary beb! and before that my sis scare us already... that damn motorbiker! putting the blame on us when he's speeding and then show attitude on the road! my gosh! i would have cursed him if it is not the fasting month!! haish.. my sis got scared over that motorbiker that she nearly stopped the car! my gosh! i think there would have been an accident by then... lucky my dad was there! hah!

the last few days have been a harmonious days for my family! it as been so long since we had this kind of happy family! my brother is adapting to the situation to get to the harmonious family back again... then yesterday, i played PS2.. my brother purposedly introduced me to a new game of his... TENNIS! hahas.. and then just now morning after meals, i played the "guitar" game! hahas.. i expect my mom to be angry but surprisingly she tell me that my brother used to play that when he was young with the boy my mom used to take care off... and that boy is in the same school as me.. lol... i still couldn't find him at any part of the school... even if i do, i would probably can't remember him... it has been so long!! and he's from so called chinese family..mixture la.. haish...

my gosh! tomorrow i sure have trouble in going to school! have been sleeping late... and after my meal in the morning, i went to sleep back again, i woke up like at 10am or even 12noon?! my mom just have no comment for me... hehe... bad feeza! even had a scolding by my bf! haish.. not that i dont want! but i just can't! 3weeks at home simply makes me "mendak"! alahai... i wonder and i wonder...

anyway, all the best for those who are having ur attachment tomorrow!
all the bests to those who have started school!
but i have no comment to those who are still enjoying ur hoildays or even going to start their holidays soon! haish.. take care people!

i'll only update when i'm free or even when i'm in school during break time! wee...!! =)

lots of misses and loves to EVERYONE!

2007-09-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

wee...!!! there's always a kid in everyone!! i'm not an exceptional! =D

first and for most!
SELAMAT BERPUASA SEMUA!!
semoga semua dapat melalui bulan yang rahmat ini dengan tabah dan sabar!=)

today is the first day of the fasting month...well, for the first time i'm excited... heheh..not sure why.. so yarh!! i hope i can go through this fasting month doing good deeds... and i'm starting school like in 3days more?? going to be in a new class, new friends but old environment!! hahas.. yeah! this was due to the reason that my class now is W35P... hah! last semeter was in w35A..just the opposite side... haish..was separated with my friends.. i really wonder how they arrange us as it was like so RANDOM!! too random in actual fact! some of my friends are even at the E3 block which is supposed to be the seniors.. as in the year3... hmmm..?? but lucky me to be in the same class with one of my ex-w35a..heheh... and so yarh..other than that.. nothing much happen last few days.. just tidying up my room still.. heheh... how lazy can feeza be right?? tidying up the room can take 3days?? heheh... but even until now i still have another part of the room have not tidy up as it contains mostly my mom's things.. heheh..my mom say nevermind next time then tidy up.. or she would tidy up.. heheh.. last monday, i went out with my mom... she needs to go doctor... so i end up buying new clothes.. haish.. spent $50 just for a set of top.. haish... my mom just went speechless... heheh...

yesterday went out! and it was my most memorable day for me... went out with my boyfriend.. met him at Novena as he took another "half" day of school... isk! so yarh... no choice la.. yesterday was the last day for me to meet him.. haish.. so gonna suffer after this... haish.. poor thing.. went to Novena.. kind of bored la, nothing much at Novena anyway... haish...but it turned out to be alright! =x..
heheh..so yarh.. yesterday didn't reach home that late.. broke down a little.. yesterday also my sis had gotten her new car! she's simply excited over it.. and all the more everyone tends to have the attention on my sis.. she done wrong or right, every attention was given to her.. haish.. i just dont get it.. but i dont think much of it.. i'm simply tired of thinking about it..

so yarh!!today is simply great!! my family had become more harmonious! it is simply great! jokes from the morning till the moment we had our break-fast... aiyo... but i simply love it la... it has been so long since we had such a good time.. heheh.. everyone seems so happy! wee...!! only me not happy.. alahai... but so far, i've been doing it good! heheh... school starting soon!! aarrrgghhh!!

anyway, k la..
i'll stop here for today...
had a busy day today...
need a rest..
1st day of puase la...
hehe...
EXCUSES! haish...

last but not least...

SELAMAT BERPUASA!!

and an advance happy 3rd month anniversary to my sayang! hehe...
how time flies.. haish...

2007-09-09T11:00:00.000+08:00

just the way i want it to be! kissie2..hehe...from "him".. =)

PEEK-A-BOO!! I LOVE YOU!! :x

memories of loves!=)

weee...!! so yesterday was just another wonderful day for me!! hahas.. but it seems that it has turned the other way round!! hahas... instead of me getting bullied, i bully him!! hahas.. bad feeza.. well, i was kind of excited la... dont get me wrong!! i stayed up at home for like so many days then yesterday finally i can go out! so yarh! kind of happy! hehe.. yet another memorable day!

so yeah! yesterday woke up quite early la.. and so is today.. hmm?? no idea!! so ya! early in the morning was told that we are going to survey a car! hahas.. so damn excited eventhough it is not mine! it was meant for my sis! my sis didn't know about it and that it really surprised her that she still couldn't believe she's in the reality world! well, that's how great my sis is! my parents bought everything for her.. ANYTHING! and pay for everything.. haish.. but my sis was never gratefull for it! everything says that my parents not being fair to her! haish.. she has always thought my parents favour me alot! wth! so yarh! she was damn excited over it! yesterday my dad has paid the deposit to the car.. eventhough it is a 2nd hand car but hey! it is something ok! haish.. got to know from my dad, he says, i must finish up all my studies and get to as high as i can.. take up more courses if can, learn more languages.. before i can decide to take up driving licence.. unfair right?! my sis get it when she's 18 years old when she's in poly.. 1st year in poly only u know coz she get quite good results for her o'level since her n'level she never ask for anything.. i get better than her, i didn't ask for anything.. bought new handphone also use my own money! worse right?! haish... that's reality for me!

so yarh! i get to vote yesterday the car for my sis! after a small debate, i won! yeah!! hahas.. manage to brainwash everyone in the family! bad feeza! sorry as i can't upload the picture of the car here! it is high risk! heheh... okok.. so back to the topic.. i went out late as i have to wait for my sis! go out with her was a big risk i took! sorry syg! hahas... but was lucky that my sis never expect anything! :p well, we both didn't know where to go and so in the train, we think and think where to go.. end up at city hall, marina sq! but we actually went to suntec city! found that yami yoghurt stall but didn't bought it as i was kind of full.. haish.. but ow, craving for it!! after that fasting month cannot eat! haish.. poor thing! =(

so yea! walked walked like nobody's business.. hehe.. went to our favourite toy store! yeah! hahas.. super cute! and then hang around at marina bay! my gosh! the wind just make the situation better! :x heheh.. but then bumped into my RP "used-to-be" classmate [since we all are changing class next semester onwards.=(].. haish! ruined everything! hahas.. work as a surveyer?? hahas... tease me huh?! that's so bad! hmph! my oh my! so yeah! went home late after that.. supposed to go for "kenduri"(sorry, forgot the english word for it..)... but end up i didn't as i would want to have a talk with my brother! heheh.. car talk! alalala... =) get a bear2 from him! sweets! i love it! :p thanks so much! eventhough it is not as big as i want it to be, but still, it is lovely! =) it is the thoughts that counts! heheh... and how much i value that bear2! =)

countdown to fasting month : 4days
countdown to our next anniversary : 5days! :X

2007-09-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

the part of me is missing ever since u took it away! :X

lots of misses and loves to you! :p

another tiring day for me..haish... had another cleaning day for me.. busy gyrl as usual.. hahas.. early morning had a msg from my girlfriend! hahas... miss her alot sia! we were supposed to meet last monday but she was busy with her prelims.. haish... then my other friend msg me that she was also busy.. our meeting was forgotten! so bad of her! haish.. so looks like the swensen meal have to be postponed! hah! lucky! i'm broke this month that's why i never go out.. sorry peeps as i dont msg u guys to go out... in anyway, i'm busy also... hehe.. goodgyrl, sit at home cleaning in progress! what to do.. soon school starts and fasting month nearing.. no time to clean my room by then... but still i took 2days, still have not finish cleaning thanks to what happened just now.. haish.. so monday i'll clean my wardrobe! hehe.. throwing some clothes...

so yarh! just now as i was cleaning some stuffs, i found some things.. hehe... some memories... i couldn't believe i did all that back then... writing all those silly names during lesson... hahas... so yea! i've thrown everything!! no more flashback for me please... weee...!! a brand new life!! =)
oh yarh! the funny thing is that, as i was cleaning some stuffs, i found my raya money last year! hahas... it is kind of weird and i totally forgot i saved some.. but end up i gave my mom.. due to certain reasons la... haish... other than that, nothing much la basically.. found some drawings that my friend did everytime they're bored and my books are their favourite place to "vandalise"! hahas.. they always bully me! i wonder why.. hmm..?? some says i'm fun to be bullied! hey! so bad huh?!but getting used to.. heheh... but patience have their own limitations ok?! mmm... n yarh! i found my bills! since last year's bill.. so far... the previous month's bill is the most expensive.. if i remembered last time the most expensive is only $60++ but now, it has reached $70++ near to $80.. i'm so dead! haish.. that's why i've said i'm BROKE! that's my 2weeks allowance sia! haish... poor me....

i've checked my webmail.. gosh!! damn alot! i wonder when was the last time i've checked it.. hehe.. then i found a mail about my semester fees... my gosh!! damn shocking! $1000++ and it is gonna deduct from my account!! my gosh!! no shopping sia for me! how can?! my mom still can say it is alot! hahahs... actually that's not the actual amount.. that's after the less tuition grant from MOE and less GST subsidy sia!! u can just imagine that! how much would it cost if foreign students would cost right?! fuyo!! but if i have the chance, i would really want to try and further my studies! hehe... i was also told to change my password for my RP account... oh man!! i really hate it u know!! they always ask for a change.. like a few months once?? haish... i'm so out of passwords sia... and the worse thing is that we cannot use the old password that we've used before! worse right? poor poor me... i wonder and i wonder... for 3yrs have to keep changing password.. crack my brain sia! hahas...

just now afternoon as i was about to start my 2nd cleaning in progress, my brother suddenly came to my room asking me: "did u hear that? did u hear that? can see from here or not??" with my blur face and blur response, i say, " huh?" hahas!! dumb me! aiyo! then my mom say that she and my brother heard someone moaning and asking for help..and then after we cannot find out what happened, my mom dragged me down to check it out.. oh man!! but seriously, we got to know that the two couples fall off by themselves by riding their bike!my neighbour went to help so we ask him.. we do make assumption la as the only one that is injured is the gyrl not the guy.. the gyrl couldn't even sit up.. gosh! scary! the guy was not simply injured, i think... haish.. but this is already the 2nd time accident happened near my area.. that's what my mom said.. the 1st one was damn bad!! think someone is gonna get a talk by my mom.. hehe... well yarh, no offence to readers ok? but my family is not in favour of motorbikers... so whoever going to be our future family life that would be a NoNo.. hehe.. and also another NoNo in the family la.. but i would not write that down la.. those who knows, will know..:p

countdown to fasting month: 6days
countdown to our next anniversary : 7days

2007-09-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

my new look of my handphone!! hahas... i simply LOVE it! :p

u think u know what i'm thinking buddy?? :p

hmm... i wonder and i wonder... hehe...

alala... nothing better to do!!haish...

hmph!! u always makes me mad!! hahas...

no matter how much i hide myself, u still find me! hmph! hahas.. :p

so yea! i've cleaned 3/4 part of my things in the room!! wee...!! damn tiring!! well, couldn't denied i found all the things of my memories in every part of my stuffs... haish.. and all i did was THROW!! THROW!! hahas... i would really want to move on!! NEVER would i want to look back on those things again.. i never knew i wrote those stuffs sia.. hahas... think back, it is kind of foolish part of me to do those stuffs... but what hurts me the most when i was cleaning up the room was the incident that happened in secondary one... it really flashback everything... how it happens and what happened after that... i would always want to remember that incident as it involves the pain that everyone around me have gone through... it has obviously changed the life i'm going through after that.. things had been better only when another incident happens.. haish... but eventhough i've changed bit by bit, there's always time i'm being mischievious.. hehe... bad feeza... well, that's teenage life... don't u think so??

so yea! i've thrown all my old memories!!now begin with a new life! wee...!! i'm so loving it!! hehes... i take a look at my results back again just now... it is unbelievable! ahas... those grades! i'm lucky enough i didn't go to MI.. if not, i'll suffer more i guess..hehe... then i looked at the photos back then... haish... memories!! i simply missed those days sia! haish... those happy days! and now, everyone seems to be going to their own separate ways... i wonder if some will not be in contact at all.. haish...

and yarh!! i went JB yesterday! kind of disappointed as i cannot get to the bread shop! hahas..!! kk.. shh.... :X
i brought a book by Anis Ayuni titled: Bayangan Rindu..
yea! full collection so far!! weee...!! but other than that, i have nothing else to say.,. was attracted to this one Kebaya suit but kind of expensive not worth the money as it is kind of plain! but i love the color which is white! haish... what to do...

my results is out! didn't do quite well for my first semester.. have a gpa of 3.1 only..haish.. my UT4 was kind of surprising too!! i've got another A but this time round for my Enterprise module! not bad huh?! i aim for Maths to get an A but failed to do so.. haish... next step is to improve on my next semester.. but i dont think i'm putting high hopes on it as i didn't even expect my GPA for my first semester to get this grade... heheh... it is better that we dont think much about it and go with the flow, then u'll get what u want! hahas! bad thinking.. isk2...

k la..
got to go!!
tired! and kind of busy still...
hehes...
take care peeps!
lots of misses and loves from feeza!!
tatash!=)

countdown to fasting month: 7days
countdown to the next anniversary: 8days

2007-09-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

boredom & my holiday is ruined! eerrgghh!

SIM! another inspiration school i've stepped into..=)

interesting! found this @ SIM! still couldn't figure out, what is it! hah!

super bored waiting for my sis to get her hair done! haish... 4hrs straight!

Kak Tini (my sis's fren), my sis n ME!=)

wee..!!i woke up super damn early today!hahas! yesterday i've had a late night due to some reasons! haish.. woke up as early as 6am! hahas... it has been so long since i woke up at 6am just to go out! the last time was in my sec sch / MI days? fuyo!! but i was still lazying around.. read a msg which was sent at 5am by my sis's fren to say that we met at a later time! i don't even rmber her looks, how am i supposed to meet her later! but the funny thought in me got it right! in fact, i can read people's mind today and so people can read mine! met iqah early in the morning in 901 bus. it amazes me how iqah couldn't see me! hahas... damn weird! seriously! so yarh, met my sis at Clementi as she was from her working place....she even msg me to say she have forgotten her ezlink! funny day to start off with..;)

well, being with my sis and her friend simply makes my day! all sorts of jokes! heheh.. so we took bus 154 to SIM... wah!! i simply love it! seriously! i've stepped into nearly all the different types of schools that is possible.. i've been to JC/MI, i've been to NUS, and now SIM.. all the polys i've stepped into... even ITEs... except to SMU! but at least i've been to different levels of schools! :p

now i aim to go to a university if i get into one..hehe... HOPEFULLY!! hahas... but i envy my sis alot! she's surrounded by peeps who are capable to do so well.. one of her close friend, which i know off quite well, is going off to UK to futher her studies for like 5years!! she will be going during the hari raya.. haish.. then the other person is just now i met her, she's studying in NUS.. and seriously, she doesn't look stress at all!! she's enjoying it! gosh!!and she's a nurse! oh yarh! talking about that, i nvr mentioned why i go SIM today right? well, my sis wants to apply to futher her studies... but sad to say, she left the school with disheartened... haish... and then she was damn pissed and think negatively.. she blamed everything as she have gone through a really rough week for the past few weeks.. her ward everything.. my gosh! hurting me sia!

but my sis's friend really say some encouraging words:
"do something that u want with an open heart. do something because u want it. dont do something because of "revenge". God knows better. if u have an open heart, u'll get what u want."
haish.. i really pity my sis!

so yarh!after that i accompany my sis go reborn her hair! my gosh!i waited nearly about 4++hours!! i was damn hungry!! i nearly faint sia! the place is already so cold! haish... it was raining... then planned to go macdonald to eat but too bad, no more macdonald so ate Teh Tarik makan place( i think so that's the name).. hehe...

then went home! gosh! my sis is DAMN gorgeous!! so jealous!!then got to know my mom allowed me to reborn my hair! DAMN! haish... when i got home, i was damn pissed with the lady who came to the hair salon just now.. she just pisses people's off but when something happen, i just smile at her! hah! serve her right! bad feeza huh? but serve her right! she was being so bossy and complaining as well as comparing all the salon that she has went to... and the first thing that my sis asked after she was speechless was: " if i cut my hair like this, do u think he would left me?"
hah! just as i've guessed it! can see through her eyes!
i replied :"of course he wont la UNLESS he's BLIND!!!" i shout sia!! think my sis kind of upset! but hey! that guy is such a super duper JERK!!

and yarh, throughout my days, me and my sis have been taking the taxi.. and there this taxi which looks new, drives a FIAT taxi and was driven by an Indian Muslim- a woman mind you! so very the rare! nowadays, woman drives bus and taxi... cool huh? but my gosh! that taxi that was driven by her was at a high speed lor! and she was always on phone..isk2!

so i think i'll stop here... i think i've left somethings, but i've forgotten due to people disturbing me! haish... and yarh, ytd skipped, my religious class again! hahas.. but i was right! no class! wee..!! went to buy some snacks! hahas... last but not least! i'm in love with my new case for my hp! it was a mixture of pink+white with a butterfly at the back of it as a deco! so dont jealous my loved ones! :p

take care peeps!
misses and loves u guys!!=)

2007-09-02T19:50:00.000+08:00

thanks to yuslinda was tagged to play (:

list out ur top 5 birthday presents u wish for:
#1: a new MP3
#2: a BIG TEDDY BEAR (from him ONLY)
#3: an Adidas shoe
#4: that PINK watch! =)
#5: a some of cash can? hee..

1.the person who tagged u is: yuslinda!
2.ur relationship w her is: ex wgps / ex-millennians
3. ur 5 impressions of her: sweet. neat. smart.
4.the most memorable thing she had done for u: eerrmm... which one is it??
5.the most memorable words tt she had said to u: i forgot! hehe..
6. if she becomes ur lover,u will?: of course NOT!
7.if she's ur lover,what she has to improve on: hah! (no ans)
8.if she becomes ur enemy,u will?: hmm?? why should we be enemy for no reason?
9.if she becomes ur enemy,the reason is: between me,her n GOD. :p
10.the most desire thing you would like to do for her now is?: wish her best for what she will be going through..
11.your overall impression of her: she's simply friendly! =)
12. how do you think ppl ard u will feel abt u: ask them. i dont know!
13.the character u love abt urself is: emotional at times! hee..
14.on the contrary,what charcter u hate abt urself: being tooooo kind hearted...
15.the most ideal person i would like to be: i love being myself! :p
16.for the ppl who cared & liked u,say smthg to them; Thanks! i appreciate it lots!
17.pass this quiz to 10 ppl tt u wish to know how they feel abt u. Hey,pls do k? Its quite fun though its long. Thanks (:

#1 iqah
#2 noris
#3 faezah
#4 qhais
#5 rohani
#6 meiting
#7 shimin
#8 jennifer
#9 shuhadah
#10 hazwani

who's n.o 2 having relationship with: no one i guess?? hehe..
is n.o9 a female/male: female of course!
if n.o 1 & 10 be tgt,will it be a gd thing: there's BLOOD sistaz for what i know!
how abt n.o 3&4: of course NOT! they dont even know each other! hah!
n.o 2 studying abt: science!
when was the last time u'd chatted with n.o 3: quite long ago??
what kind of music does n.o 8 like: hah! not sure!
n.o 6 has any siblings?: yes.
will u woo n.o 3?: NO!
how abt n.o7?: of course NOT! she's my friend!
is n.o 4 single: i guess so! hehe...
surname of n.o 5: none.
what's the hobby of n.o 5: oppss!! i dont know.. sorry..
n.o 3 studying at: Millennia Institute
have u try developed feelings for n.o 8?: hahas. no, she's my "ah ma"!
where does n.o9 live: woodlands.
what colour does n.o4 like: hmm...??
does n.o 1&3 best friend: they are friends in MI previously! =)
does n.o 7 like n.o 2?: of course NOT! they are not lesbian!
how do u know n.o 2.: ex-1e3('03) classmate in WGS!=)
does n.o 5 has pet: does she??

2007-09-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

sat at home today..
sian arh..
haish..
checked my GPA just now..
i gt all B for my 4 out of 5 modules..
1 B+ for my other module which is MATHS!
hahas..
as what my faci as predicted for me..
haish...
so yarh...
didn't do anything...
kind of bored!
i recieved my bill today!
it is $77.55!!
my gosh!!
my 1and a half weeks of money sia!
and my msg hits 1273 msges!!
so now, i can't msg much..
and my boyfriend also dont want msg me!
poor thing..
haish..
how i wish i can still use my prepaid..
my prepaid also is 96cents i think left..
haish...

so yarh...
just wanna say sorry to iqah n noris for not going to treat u guys Seoul Garden today..
and i think we have to postpone la...
on the next school holiday probably??
haish..
and yarh, to fitri n shasha also...
next time maybe??
haish..
now no more shopping for me..
unles for raya shopping..
oh man!!
so heartbreaking!
can't msg him much is more heartbreaking!

so yarh..
yesterday was Teachers' Day celebration...
wasn't plan to go WGS anyway..
so went ECP with him..
hehe...
took 168 to bedok and then took 196...
hahas...
long way huh?
but i simply forgot where to alight if take 966 from woodlands...
so yea!!
had really a great fun!
but when i was about to go home, i feel so not right...
my gastric acting up again..
well, what to do...
eversince the start of school holiday...
i didn't eat much..
2meals a day...
and didn't sleep well at night..
only a few hours of sleep..
i dont know why...
i'm kind of stressed at home with all sorts of problems...
how i wish it is school days...
haish...
went to Parkway Parade which nearly get us lost...
was damn tired and i'm sorry!:x
it was not a worthwhile thing to get to Parkway Parade..
what i want wasn't there!
haish...

today..
woke up quite early...
watched vcds, read my novel, online and sleep!
haish..
damn bored!
watch a show titled: A MOMENT TO REMEMBER...
i watched it alot of times and never failed to cry...
some quotes:
~"when a memory is gone, so is the soul"~
~"forgiving is just giving your hate a little room in your heart"~
well, what i've learnt is that, it is better to let your feelings known to your loved ones...
before everything is too late and u regret it..

a quote to someone you love: i'm your memory and i'm your heart!

n yarh...
my msn create some problems ytd..
haish...
n now, i lost everything...
it is like the beginning of everything..
and i plan not to do anything..
i'm simply exhausted..
tired of my life...
i just in need of rest and all i get at the end of the day is more stressed!!
people say i'm just thinking too much..
well, if i dont think, do u think it will ever solved?
it is like only me handling those works when i'm supposed to be the one who are not supposed to think about it...
seriously, i really need a rest...
how i wish i can be free...!!
free like a bird even for just a moment...
that moment is what i craved for... haish,...

well, i guess i'll stop here for now...
take care peeps!
i really hope i could meet up with u guys...
haish...
memories stays on forever..
and i hold on to the memory at the castle on 310807... :x
i wonde r if i've made the right decision in mylife..
i've made a fresh start but it seems that the situation is edning up like how i used to be except for the matter of my heart...
it seems to be changing!=)
and i let the past be my past and not to be remembered of what i've been gone through as one broken heart is better than two broken hearts..=)

2007-08-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

AARRGGHH!!
I'M SO DAMN PISSED!!
I THOUGHT OF NOT BLOGGING TODAY!!
BUT SITUATION JUST MAKES ME DAMN PISSED!
FIRSTLY, I WAS DAMN PISSED AS I BUMP INTO THE GUY WHO HAVE DESTROYED MY LIFE ABOUT A YEAR AGO!!
SECONDLY. I WAS LOCKED OUT OF HOUSE JUST BECAUSE I WAS LATE??!!
WELL, HELLO!!
IT 8PM THAT LATE??!!
MY SIS CAME BACK LIKE 12AM AND STILL U JUST ASK HER WHERE SHE HAD GONE TO!!
I GO OUT OF HOUSE LIKE AT ABOUT 12.30PM, THEY SAY I WAS OUT THE WHOLE DAY!!
FUCK SIA!!
MY SIS WENT OUT LIKE NEARLY 24 HOURS, NOTHING HAPPEN!!
WHAT THE HECK SIA!!
IT IS SO UNFAIR!!
EVERYTIME BLAME ME!!
AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!
i know la that my sis's situation have made everyone in the house stressful!!
but hey!!
dont treat me like in a prison just because you dont want me to end up like my sis!!
i know la!! damn it arh!!
i'm so stressed up already with the situation at home, they think i'm trying to take things easy!!
i sat at home like 3days already and they say i always go out??!!
fuck sia!!!!
so pissed you know!!
how can i relax right?!!
it is all about FAVOURITISM!!
what's the point in me doing all the good things when all they see is the bad things!!
sometimes the bad things wasn't mine also, but i'm to blame!!
and i can't even explain things out as i wasn't given the chance to!
they just say i'm lying!!
i can't even lie!!
only on certain circumstances but mostly i can't lie!!
i would end up telling the truth!!
what else i can do right??!!
they even know when i lie and when i'm telling the truth!!
haish!!

went out with iqah today...
dont know where to go, so end up at bugis..
i wasn't in any mood to buy anything today...
but then last minute we went to watch a movie..
after that met my boyfriend for awhile..
and yarh, we watched Hairspray..
was kind of alright...
but the songs are quite not bad la...hehe...
iqah was addicted to it...
aiyo!
tomorrow staying at home..
haish...
it just ruined my HOLIDAYS SIA!!
my one and only 3weeks of holiday when i was supposed to enjoy myself after 9weeks of school..
there goes my fun!
haish..
k la..
i'll stop here for the day...
seriously, how i wish it is a school day....
i prefer to go school than being in this FUCKING situation!!
how i wish i can runaway from home and never come back...
can anyone give me an idea on where to go??
i really cannot take it!!
i'm enough of tears, enough of pain that i've gone through!!
please someone, save me!
can someone just save me as i really wish everything stops here as i'm in need of PEACE!

PS: sorry peeps for this pissing off entry... i really couldn't take it anymore... it is driving me crazy... and it is affecting my personal life...!! i dont wish what i fear off to happen....haish...

2007-08-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

wee...!! i was really bored!!
so i edited my picture!
for a beginner not bad huh?
hehe..
so yarh..
whole day, sleep, read book, play neopets, surfing the net...
haish...
BORING!!
want go out also not in any mood..
the situation at home just ruin my mood...
now whenever i want to go out, have to bring my sis along...
haish..
poor me...
sorry sayang, i knew u were kind of upset that we can't meet..
haish..
so yarh, fasting month is getting nearer!!
oh man!!
i have to eat whatever i want first if not, i'm craving for it!!
hahas..
bad feeza huh??!!
eerrmm...
so yarh, nothing much to update!
just bored!
hehe..
take care peeps!!
anything just beep me!
but i can't gurantee u guys i can go out!
haish...

2007-08-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

my 2nd specs... was the most fav in sec2 back then.. everyone wants to try it on!! hahas..

my 3rd specs!! my fav specs as it is PINK in colour!! hahas.. but didn't last for long..=(

my 4th specs..this is the lastest.. my 2nd fav!!=)

this is my last grade for my 1st Semester! wee..!! only the 'X' makes it unpleasant looking!! hehe.. ws told UT4 will not be shown.. haish...=(

well, basically today i surveying back my old specs in the morning!!
hahas...
well, my 1st specs was not shown..
it is because it is so not the nice!!
hahas..
i dont believe i used that specs then..
well, it was when i was in primary 5..
so u know, fashion was not really up then..
hehe...
so basically i've tried all that i can..
now aiming for a new specs!!
any recommendations peeps??
haish...
so yarh...
just now when to JB..
believe it or not, first time ever been to JB for like 3 hours!!
hahas...
took bus u know!
and yarh!!
i've bought two novels!!
1) Senafas Rindu - Damya Hanna
2) Kau Kekasihku - Anis Ayuni
so yarh... aiming for one more by Anis Ayuni!!
i forgot the title but it is the latest one!!
arrgghhh!!
i miss the collection of her!!
haish..
nevermind, i'm so gonna spend my 3weeks of holiday reading the novels..
heheh...
so ok...
actually nothing much to update la..
oh yarh!!
went to my all time "fav" bread shop!!
well, i guess iqah n noris knew what i mean!!
hahas..
shh ok??
hehe...

and yesterday was the start of our holiday in RP!!
went out with my boyfriend since he dont have class on fridays!!
great right??
how i wish my school have such timetable that for one day, u have no class..
haish...
dream on feeza!!
haish...
so we went to TM..
watched Rush Hour 3!!
was damn great!!!
i just couldn't stop laughing!!
but i was damn cold!!
it was raining yesterday..
so yeah!!
my next stop of movie would be Evan Almighty!!
any takers??
want watch with me??
i'm available for 3weeks only peeps!!
hahas..
and yarh!!
this friday teacher's day celebration i would not drop by at WGS..
dont ask me why...
i guess some of you might know why..
i want and i need to move on...
send my regards to the teachers aites..=)
thanks!!

tomorrow is the DAY!!
tomorrow my parents and my aunt and uncle is going to that guy's house!!
i'm so gonna hear what is he going to say!!
okok..
i know i shouldn't tag along..
but hey!!
i was asked to do something ok!!
hahas...
on behalf of my sis!
so i have to really be PATIENT!!
control my anger!!
control my feelings...
haish...
so tomorrow, saying goodbye to our rabbit!!
giving them back!!
so tomorrow is the official day...
hmm...??

sayang, please take good care of yourself k?
dont fall sick..
and take care of spongebob!!
wee...!!
hahas...

2007-08-23T20:00:00.000+08:00

today's destination: NOVENA!
hahas...
my day out with my sis after a long time..
kk...
i guess u guys must be puzzled with what i've said right??
especially to those who knows about my problem at home..
but the thing is that, the most scariest thing have happened in the family...
honestly, now i'm in no mood for anything...
my family is trying to solve the situation...
but slowly la..
anyway, i'm trying to make the things cheerful therefore, i have made things overturn..
if my sis is trying hard why can't i right?
so yarh..
i waited for my sis like for an hour as she have class at Alexandra Hospital...
so yarh...
within that 1 hour, i found weird people around us...
the most weird and funny is when there's an uncle who uses the payphone near the MRT station...
hahas...
he's really funny!!
just about when he wanted to say something to the other party, his handphone rings!!
hahas..
then he looked at me like it was unexpected...
lol...
imagine that, u have a phone but still used handphone...
hahas...
i think he uses prepaid..
but still....??
hmm...
nevermind about that..
but another thing is when there's a few students la..
i suspected primary school early as it is still early like 1.20pm...
vulgars are used..
my gosh!!
that surprised me alot..
and yarh..
then me n my sis, walked to square 2..
then i saw YAMI YOGURT!!
my gosh!!
it is really tempting!!
aarrgghh!!
but then we went to the POSB bank first..
after that walked walked at Square 2 for awhile, before finding out that we are hungry..
hahas..
so went to Magic Wok Restaurant (Halal Thai-Chinese Cuisine) at Novena MRT Branch..
i ate till i'm superb full!!
hahas...
back to Square 2 again...
YAMI YOGURT!!
cool man!!
it simply taste AWESOME NOW!!
hahas..
my sis also say it is fantastic!!
hahas..
rating 4/5!!
not bad huh??
someone like her who drink yogurt, says that she never come across this kind of yogurt!
cool huh?!
so try it out peeps!!=)
at around 5++pm...
then i realised, today is THURSDAY!!
RP!!
hahas..
yarh...
i skipped school today!!
bad feeza huh??
today is the last day in RP in W35A!
kind of sad la that we are changing class...
haish..
but the thing is that the Sentosa trip is confirmed!!
wee..!!
must go that's what my friends all says..
haish...
kk...back to where i've stopped..
walked walked at causeway point and then go home!!
my sis seemed to be getting tired easily...
i think when your heart is in pain and your mind keeps thinking about it, it would get tired easily...
haish...
k la..
i also want to stop till here..
i'll update again tomorrow...
tomorrow going out also!!=)
wee...!!

girls are not TOYS to be played...
we have feelings and so are u right?
hurting one another would just kill and regret your ownself!!
be responsible in whatever u have done!
u're just who i expected to be..
u're such a JERK!
DAMN IT!
just dont let me see u around!
once my enemy will ALWAYS be my enemy...
especially someone like YOU!

2007-08-22T20:00:00.000+08:00

there would not be any class like W35A!=)
full of memories!=)

this is the last day for Computing & Mathematical Methods I

only less than half the class attended

edited by Shimin...=)

so yarh...

today is the last day for me..

my last day in W35A has been great for me so far..

being bullied by my peeps..

hahas..

i'm so gonna miss them!!

haish...

i simply love my grades too for this week...

getting A's are just my inspiration...

hees...

for the very first time i get an A for my Science daily grade..

for the very first time i get an A for my Enterprise daily grade...

and then i even get A for my UT3 for my communication!

shocking sia!

but i simply LOVE it!!=)

hees..

so yarh..

today, nothing much to do...

playing games..

hees...

so yarh..

i sign up for neopets!!

hahas...

i was playing like 2 whole hours!!

my gosh!!

ate pizza today!!

yippy!!

i really wish i can go tomorrow...

today was simply fun!!

hahas..

filled with fun and laughter...

cool huh?

one of the thing that we have to write good things about other classmates..

then we have to think exactly what they are good about..

some even need to crack our brain just to write for them..

hahas...
so damn cute!
haish..
i'm so gonna miss them..!! :'(
but i hope that we all get to meet next thursday for Sentosa trip!=)

well, peeps of W35A...
thanks for the memories that we had for the past 16 weeks...
it has been a great pleasure to have u guys with fun and laughter in the lessons that we had..
there would surely be no class like W35A...
therefore, hope u can meet up with u guys in any of the days that we are free and see you guys around the campus..
take care peeps!!
do keep in touch yarh?!
so long!!=)

2007-08-19T15:00:00.000+08:00

anyway, i was told by faezah to play this game..
heheh..

Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs! :D

1. i love maths when the people around me dislikes maths.. and my family is not good at maths.. hahas.. even in Rp, i took Maths + computing, i did well in it.. believe it or nt!

2. i told myself not love someone yet as i want to focus on my studies first but end up i'm deeply in love with my bf and i'm happy with it! :p [till i break a promise made with my friends.]

3. i'm half boyanese but i dont even know how to speak boyanese what more understand them.. only a bit..hees..

4. when i'm happy or hyper, i would be crazy... i wonder why.. ask my friends.. they will say i'm weird..hahas..

5. no matter how much i hate that person or someone, i always end up having a pitiness to that someone and can just forgive that someone..

6. i thought i would not be able to adapt in Republic Polytechnic as i hate RP, but i did... having fun in school in fact! making new friends.. for certain only..=)

7. always fall sick when i dont wish to fall sick..

8. i'm the youngest at home but i feel as if i'm the eldest at home..having to handle the problems at home..haish..

9. loves to go out and dislike going back home when i'm out but when i'm at home, i dont feel like going out eventhough it is a must to go out...

10. had gone to Mecca when i was in pri sch and feel like going there again!! simply love the place there.. esp taking the plane!! wee...!! =D

the six lovely!!=)

1. Iqah
2. Noris
3. Khais
4. Shuhadah
5. Shimin
6. Meiting

2007-08-19T14:30:00.000+08:00

my mood today: LOVED! PISSED! HAPPY!
wee...!!
i think yesterday was the best day ever!!
was damn lazy in the morning actually as i had the chance to wake up late..
no mandarin class..
postponed till November..
hees...
i took my own day offs till November..
good huh??
hees...
and so yarh...
when out at around 1.30pm...
met my boyfriend and off we went to VivoCity,..
it was rainning..
damn it!!
damn cold lor!
haish...
what to do...
the season now is rainning...
haish..
then there's a lot of people at Vivo watching movie..
so then in the end, the show we want to watch was fully booked...
haish..
so postponed again..
this is the 2nd time we wanted to watch at Vivo but was fully booked..
haish..
so yarh, hang around at Vivo while waiting till 7pm, meeting Iqah n Noris at City Hall...
the we ate at Banquet at Vivo..
seriously and honestly, i didn't know there's Banquet at Vivo..
hehes...
very outdated feeza..
isk2..
then ate wanton noodle..
i just misses wanton noodle...
esp at vista point's Banquet..
haish..
while eating, i spotted alot of things..
i saw the person who sits in front of me, ate a plate of Fried Kway Teow Cockles[ or whatever the name is la..forgotten..]..
a huge plate!!
reminds me of Iqah n Noris..
their favourite but i think that this plate can be shared..
the other thing i spotted is that, a group of family, uses chop stick to eat their noodles..
it is a malay family and they uses the right way of using the chop stick...
coolness!!
and then off we went to City hall...
well, i just knew, i have not mentioned why i go there right?
well, to watch the FIREWORKS!!
the best thing is that, i could watch with someone i love.=)
but when we have reached City Hall..
my gosh!!
damn packed sia!!
it is like 31 Dec u know!!
haish..
get to know my sis went to watch too...
damn panicked sia when i get to know about it..
but luckily iqah n noris were fast enough...
haish...
then off we went to meet Iqah's friends...
super packed...
and sorry iqah, always get lost..
hees...
damn blur gyrl!! haish..
the fireworks starts at around 9.20pm...
but there's something else that happens first..
the flying kites!!
the fireworks goes on for like 15minutes..
damn cool man!!
the fireworks are just so beautiful...
i thanks my parents for letting me go for this one in a lifetime opportunities..=)
reached home at around 11pm..
i think..
my gosh!!
damn tired..
i run up the stairs of the bridge in front of my blk as i was left with no choice but to rush back home...
gd exercise at night!
hahas..
but tired la..
hees..
and yarh..so, today morning just couldn't wake up!!
hees..
didn't even go for my religious class..
hees...
didn't do much...
just damn pissed and damn confused as well as stressed up with the problems that i had that doesn't seem to have an ending..
haish..
just who is at fault now?

i simply dont understand my sister at all!!
what's wrong with her sia!!
why must i go through this and she just left without any consideration that i suffer more than her!!
damn it!!
so selfish of her!!
so stubborn!!
i know la she's hurt about what had happened..
but then dont tell me she's going to hide and pretend nothing had happened?!?!
dont she think that her parents are more inmportant!!
damn it sia!!
now that she has seen his true colours!!
want to hide la...
want to runaway..
so ego!!
haish...
and i just wanna FUCK that guy off sia!!
we gyrls do have feelings ok!!
dont treat us anyway u guys want!
had fun and then off u go!
getting engaged is a major thing, u had ur words, so dont just think u can play around!
have ur responsibility la...
u've had spent my sis money and u had made her the way she is now, and there u are lying to her time and again!
damn it sia!!
better treat my sis carefully arh and stop fooling around!
FUCKER!!

PS: sorry for the last paragraph..but seriously, if u guys want to get engaged or get married, think things carefully... dont try to find others at fault when u are at fault too... have an understanding la.. be mature in ur mindset la... dont try to make the family bonds to break and there u are, trying to make things worse... everyone has feelings, and feelings are supposed to be used in the good way, not a bad way..dont try to runaway from what u've done wrong.. but faced it..

2007-08-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

 my cliques and our dear faci [alex]..=)
*haish, Hisyam just spoiled the picture.. isk!*

me + Meiting + Shimin

Our very own "dish" made for Alex..
hahas..

Meiting + me..=)

Me + Shimin [from backview.. nice huh? =)]

my mood today: HAPPY, DELIGHTED

so yeah!!
today my module is enterprise..
i thought of not coming as today is the last problem for this module..
it is going to be the last problem for all the modules that i'm having..
first semester is coming to an end..
so fast huh?
next semester changing class..
haish..
today, kind of relaxing la...
it is like the last day of school..
seriously...
so yarh..
i went school early today..
i thought i was going to be late..
but my dad decided to send me..
so yarh..
reached school and everyone seems late because got caught in the rain..
poor thing..
hahas..
sorry..
so yarh...
1st break was kind of being used up fully by doing worksheet..
and then until 11.30, we off to Causeway Point and had our lunch @ Seoul Garden!
cool huh?!
as a class..
but a pity some were not here..
so yarh..
i'm waiting for the class pix still..
with my friend..
i'll post it when i get it kk?
they are all watching the fireworks today..
so yarh..
then off we went back to school at around 2++pm..
no time to do powerpoint!!
hahas..
well, in fact, no ppt, just do in mahjong paper!!
cool huh?
some of my classmate, didn't even bring in laptop to school...
damn pro huh?
haish...
so yarh...
had the short presentation..
as my group uses all verbal..
not much time..
as my team mates busy with sending photos..
ahahs..
like last day today..
seriously!!
haish...
i think i'm so gonna miss the fun and laughter that we had in class...
eventhough i took a long while to get used to the class but i know, it is one of the best experience to be in W35A!!=)
there would not be any class like W35A!
haish...
MEMORIES...
MEMORIES...

so yarh..
that's all i'm going to update for today!!
wee...!!
tomorrow another entry....
i mean sunday...
tomorrow going watch fireworks!!=)
sayonara people!!
wee...!!
taking care! muackzzz!!

n ya to my dear sis,
please ok...
cheer up..
dont keep things from me...
i'm worried for u...
there's always a solution to every problem...
and every relationship has its ups and downs...
if u think, that's the best for u, then i'll support u k my dear?
but please, i'm here for u..
dont keep things from me...
take care sis!
love u..
=)

2007-08-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

my new haircut..
nice??
hees...

i have nothing much to say...
just to say:
I'M IN LOVED!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I'M LOVED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!
WEEEE....!!!!!!!
take care peeps!!=)
muacckkzzz.....

happy 2nd month anniversary syg!!
love u...
tatash!!
update soon!!
wee....!!

have to get well soon!!
if not, i wont enjoy my days...
haish...
take care people!!=)

2007-08-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

my mood for today: LOVED!! :p

i simply loved today!!
yippy!!
well, actually i was feeling so sick..
i was damn afraid to go school as i'm afraid something would happen halfway..
but thinking of what would be the plan today, i took the courage to go..
had a sleepless night actually yesterday..
woke up late or i would say early but i end up lazying on my bed..
hehes..
simply lazy la..
aiyo..
in fact today is the last day for my mandarin class for the term and i'm going to postponed my next class till november..
as the fasting month is getting nearer and my mom say make it after Hari Raya Puase..
so i was like ok...
hees...
by then i've forgotten what i've learnt..
hahas...
and ya..
so sad that my mandarin teacher is going off to Dubai i think..
for like 2yrs+..
haish...
gonna miss her sia...
haish...
so yarh..
after that went off to Tampiness!!
yay!!
wont be saying much..
but ya...
ate at Qiji...
got bullied all the way..so sian...
haish...
then yarh..
just killing time by walking around TM..
and then went home..
took bus home..
in the bus..
my gosh!!
damn sleepy!!
couldn't take it..
if i close my eyes, dreamland i will be...so yarh...
since i had a bad saturday morning...
my mp3's battery went flat, i just have to use my hp's mp3..
but then it soon went near-flat...
haish...
then went home..
get a phonecall from my mom halfway...
she's at the clinic with my dad...
my dad got sting by A BABY SCORPION!!
haish...
was in a shock sia...
when my dad went home, saw his hand...
my gosh!!
it looks scary sia!!
and then tomorrow have to go tampines again..
haish..
attending a wedding ceremony...
haish...
want rest also cannot..
sian arh...
want skip my religion's class also cannot..
i met my teacher at my house bus stop!!
my gosh!!
such a lucky day huh?
isk2...
so yarh..
i think i'll stop here...
damn tired and sleepy...
take care my dears!
missing you guys!!
hees...

*3days encounting...=)*

2007-08-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY 2007

haish...
was not feeling well today..
the sore throat is like killing me!!
i dont even have the appetite to eat...
damn painful...
even yesterday was talking to him, he knows the difference..
poor me..
i think must be those chocolates!!
hahas...
chocolate addiction can makes u feel sick huh?
haish..
so ya..
my plan for my holiday today was actually ruined!!
kind of pissed off at first..
but what to do...
thanks sayang for your understanding.
haish...
so yarh..
i went to the malay village with my parents..
early in the morning!!
alot of people there...
haish..
bought alot of stuffs..
hahas..
feeza feeza..
shopping only!!
aiyo...!
i bought my religious class book...
damn it..
now i can't quit since i've bought the book..
haish..
but what i was kind of disappointed was i could not buy THOSE MALAY NOVELS!!
aaarrgghh!!
i just feel like buying the whole book store sia..
my mom say have to wait till we go malaysia..
but my parents going during my school days..
aarrgghh!!
think going to skip school again!!
hahas..
i just couldn't resist in buying those books!!
i've got a few collection but i'm gonna make it a full collection!!
hahas...
simply loving it!!
if a birthday present i get those kind of books, i'm most delighted!!
hahas...
shameless feeza..
isk2..
so yarh...
i'm wondering if i'm going school tomorrow..
my throat la..
damn hurts!
think going have fever if there's sore throat for me..
haish..
but hey!
holidays coming up soon!!
yippy!!
even my mandarin class ends this saturday...!!
and the next term starts in september!!
that's if i continue la..
i thought of continuing after the fasting month since i'm changing class..
haish..
and now, i'm staying in the room watching tv and using the comp also get scolding..
haish...
just what should i do sia?
nothing seems right in everything i do...
i'm so sick and tired living in this kind of life..
i'm always at wrong and being compared...
i simply hate that...
i wish to have my own freedom...!!

*5days encounting to the 2nd month!!*
how time flies...
1week plus of not meeting really hurts alot...
i'm just so sorry...
take care k?
missing you badly..
haish..

2007-08-07T15:15:00.000+08:00

[i'm simply love this phrase!=)]

[i just wish i can be with u always.i miss u sweet love!]

so yarh..
kind of bored today..
decided to blog today..
slacking in class..
yesterday was stressful for me..
had VB code again...
haish...
but i find it fun!
hees...
weird feeza..
so weird...
but i think it is because of maths..
hahas..
so yarh..
hard a rough day la basically..
and worse of all is that i start the day with a bad monday morning..
i already had sleepless nights and then my sister had her handphone beeping early in the morning...
6am mind you!
i'm not in sec sch anymore lor..
haish..
her handphone volume is in the maximum and the craziest song..
haish..
and when i get pissed off with her, she began to throw tantrum..
well, in the first place, it is her fault..
i have school and that it is damn early lor!
so inconsiderate!haish...
and it happened again today..
she even switched on the air-cond when it was already so cold early in the morning..
haish..
whatever la ehk..
so yarh..
yesterday met iqah for awhile at causeway point.
got a treat from her!
hahas..
happy arh!!
hahas..
iqah, dalam diam ehk?
tak baek!
da seminggu lebih u nvr told me about it!
isk2...
nevermind iqah..
we'll just wait and see k?
the last person still have to treat us ok!
hahas..
so yarh...
yesterday went home late...
i just about to settle down in my room when my dad asked me to accompany him to the doctor to buy medicine for my mom...
haish...
then the doctor super slow..
i reached home also cannot study for my UT much..
what more to give a call again..
haish..
so sorry ya..
and then today, also not in the mood..
haish...
so slacking..
so sorry group..
n ya..
i'll update some other time k?
just tired of updating for the day la..
tomorrow wearing red/white...
but had a problem in having to have a red outfit..
but i think i'm wearing white..
haish..
and friday, still thinking what i should do..
my mom thought friday no school..
hahas..
but i spoiled it as i told her i think of not going..
haish..see la how..
so poor thing..
thursday also thought of going out..
hees..
bad feeza...
k la..
i'm DONE for the day!
chao!
take care people!
love ya!=)

just get these pix from dearest fitri!
pix during our Belated Birthday Celebration!
hahas..
thanks!
simply loving it!
meet with u guys again soon!
tatash!=)

[me n dearest fitri!]

[shasha n me!]

[sweet sweet gyrlz..=)]

2007-08-05T18:00:00.000+08:00

memories.....
just random pix...
in memories still...=)

[bdae present from fitri..=)]

[bdae present from shamira..not in pix, a shirt...=)]

[memories...]

[simply belongs to you.. =x]

[National day 2007 @ Marina Bay coming up soon!=)]

so ya..
i skipped class again yesterday..
today also..
simply not in any mood to go school...
so sat at home and rest..
gosh!!
i slept alot yesterday..
i woke up morning as usual but then slept again till 12noon..
my gosh!
unbelieveable for me!!
hahas..
then after that,kind of busy with the household la actually..
my mom fall sick yesterday, so i need to go vista point and bought some stuffs..
took the opportunity to call up my bf..
hahas..
bad feeza..
haish...
but the past 2 days have been on phone la..
hopefully didn't get caught...
haish...
so ya..
at night accompany my mom to the doctor..
well, i was supposed to go check up too since i was not well..
but i didn't as i only need some rest..=)
so yeah!

today, same thing happened..
woke up damn early...
had to go vista point again and bought breakfast and some foods..
hahas..
that's mine la!
i just like to buy snacks!
in the end, the one eating is my brother..
haish..
so yarh..
bought too many stuffs just now, i feel as if my hands are about to break sia!
it feels terrible especially when recently there's some problem with both my arms..
haish..
but enduring throughout the journey sia..
lucky nothing happened...=)
happy that i got some tips..
hahas...
bad feeza..
well, being a bad gyrl for the weekends is GREAT!
hhas...
i just feel like doing everything at home..
well, it has been while since i last cook, i cooked today!!
yippy!=)
hahas...
just simple dishes...
so kind of busy with that la basically today..
and then here i am blogging!
before this, i was tidying up my room..
throw away some stuffs.
but simply hate the messy room now..
not with my things but with that someone's THINGS!!
my gosh!!
keep buying new things and never even bother to clear things up but just leave it on my side..
patience is what i'm enduring now..
gosh!!
i think if other people were be in my shoes, nobody can really take it sia...
i think they might have just thrown everything out..
so yarh..
dont even want to help own kin when in need!
but still, nothing happen..
that's basically someone who is so selfish, stubborn,proud and unreasonable person!
change unknowingly and put the blame on others.. haish..
whatever la k!
i just believe 1 thing, someone like that person, would evetually regret it in future!

PS: i've changed my layout..
so iqah, hopefully u're not confused anymore!
hahas...=)

kind of bored now!
nothing much to do..
just realised...
my friendship with my friends are fading away...
i wonder why....
is it me or is it because of our tight schedules??
haish...
so peeps!
if i dont msg u guys, doesn't mean u guys are forgotten...
just hope our friendships still going on strong!=)
take care k peeps?
anything, i'm still here to help u guys..=)
hope to meet with u guys soon!
holidays coming up!
so far, i'm available for outings! hees...
see ya!

2007-08-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

i let the pictures says some of the things that i did yesterday..=)

yesterday was fun!

hahas...

me n my "family" went to eat at Seoul Garden..

we were supposed to go Bugis and eat however, i checked out first and found out that it is on renovation..

well, actually i met my boyfriend first since he finish school early..

actual fact he skipped school..

hahas..

so bad..
but what to do...
for the sake of me??
hahas...
bad feeza!!
aiyo..
so ya...
in the end we met at city hall mrt station...
meiting was late!!
hahas...
so ya..
from then on i was bullied!!
haish...
even when i'm going home with my boyfriend, he bully me since my friends were done bullying me..
futhermore in the MRT!
very paiseh lor..
haish..
nevermind, he just makes me HAPPY!!
weee..!!
even today i also get bullied by my friends...
but end up going home halfday cause i'm having headache!
a terrible headache indeed..
i reach home, i went to sleep after my lunch and dead sleep u know!
hahas..
think having fever soon!
haish...
and ya...
back to yesterday..
when we're already at Seoul Garden, my gosh!!
so very the "kecoh"!
hahas...

we ate alot!!
hahas...
actually not me la..
the rest!
hahas..
me n my bf went separate ways yesterday and got scolded because of that..
poor me..
but i reached home at around 8pm...
my mom nag already...
hees...

so far, ya la.. it was the happiest moment of all..
have not been in the happiest moment for like a long time..!!
thanks my friends!
and thanks to you sayang.=)

k la..
i seem to have lots to say..
but since i'm not feeling too well today..
i'll stop here...
anything, wanna know more about what happen yesterday, go to my friends' blog ok?!
take care!!

i love today...
but i simply love the days when i'm with him more!=)

2007-07-29T15:45:00.000+08:00

happy long belated bdae gyrls!!
hahas..
thanks for the memories..
hahas...

so ya...
had a gathering cum bdae celebration with my dear darlings!!=)
and they are : SHAMIRA & FITRI!!
aww...
so sweet...
it has been like so long since i last met fitri but shamira, met her once in awhile la..
so ya..
early in the morning, i have to wake up damn early as i have make-up class..
imagine,9.15am i was already at Yio Chu Kang...
haish...
super early lor...
usually by that time i'm only in the train at woodlands...
super early for me lor...
so reached school same timing as my teacher...
and then i was told that the saturday class have to close as there's only 2 of the students left..
haish..
so i have to transfer class to the afternoon one...
there's advantage and disadvantage la..
advantage is that i can wake up later...
disadvantage is that i have to go home late lor...
my class is from 1pm to 4pm...
mommy arh!!:'(
now it is hard to mmet my friends already or even to go dating...
haish...
poor thing...
so ya friends...
do inform me earlier if u want to meet me..
have to ask permission already la..
i guess they already know la...
u know right who i'm referring to?
haish..
so ya...
yesterday i went home not really late la..
and then i got scolded from my mom because she says i always meet my friends..
damn pissed with that sia...
honestly, i met my friends only like 2 times in a week??
even my boyfriend also only like once in a week...
damn sad lor..
and she says i everyday go home late..
well, that's RP right?
she really thinks i'm in secondary school days...
honestly!!
haish...
she really wants me to sit at home after school..
straight away back home..
waliao!!
so boring lor!!
so unlike of poly life sia if like that...
well, i need sometime of my own lor...
imagine having to go to school like from monday-friday in RP, saturday in Orchard-my private school and then sunday my religious school+my activities in the Youth Club thingy that i was involved in An-Nur Mosque...
what else i can do right?
i listen to their decision in having to put me in so many schools, but still, getting to meet my friends only for awhile really took me so difficult until i have to beg for permission...
like a prisoner sia..
haish...
it drives me crazy sia!!
so far it has been so long since i last complain about having to go so many schools as i know that i would rather be out than being at home..
worse...
and i'm enjoying it..
it think...
but still...
haish...
i dont know what else to say..

okok..
so ya..
yesterday, helped out with fitri's stuff...
i was nearly in my sleeping mode...
but i think i already did...
sorry fit..
i'm just tired...
sorry that i used ur comp..
haish...
anyway, i was enlighted at around night time..
thanks for the cake everything!!=)
thanks for the gift!!
it was great!!
i love it!!=)
wonder when we can meet again aites?
haish...
k la..
think i'll stop here for today..
i dont know what else to write...
simply lots to say but dont know what to say..
ahahs..

PS: i love yesterday but i simply love today more...=)
yesterday was tears but today is smiles...
thanks sayang and darls!!=)

2007-07-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

FAVOURITISM!!
i hate it!!
just why is it everything that i do is wrong?!
why is it u prioritize someone who dont appreciate it at all?!
just what else must i do to convince u...??
i've always listen to u and try to make things right, u push all the blames to me...
u have always treated me differently...
u always agree to her own ways, but always forbid me to do the things that are not approved by the family in the first place...
why is it u have to keep things for her when u know she dont even need those things!!
why is it u dont get angry like u do to me??
why is it she can get to do everything and not me?!
why is it i have to be home by 7-8pm the latest but she can reached home anytime she wants?
even when she reached home at 3am, u dont even dare to lock her out but to just advice her in the morning...
u just being UNFAIR!!
u treat me like a prisoner but treat her like an angel...
u dont even care that we are breaking apart..
u blame it on me, not respecting her...
u blame others but not HER!!
when i try to debate and try to make my stand clear, u say u can't do anything...
u dont even know the favouritism u showing!!
u still backing up on her!!
even an outside u treat more than u should!!
why lie to yourself about your dissatisfaction to that outsider!!
why say to me??!!
why not say it to her?!
WHY ME??!!!
i know me being the only one left have no choice...
i dont mind...
but the thing is that, why is it u never did try to make her the awareness that u deserve the respect?!
u deserve to have the last say...
and that she needs your approval for everything that involves everyone around her!!
it is so unfair!!
she have her happiness,enjoying her life like she wants it to be, but we all are suffering because of her and SHE DONT EVEN CARE??!!
MY GOSH!!
if i have the right, i would have slap her....
scold her...
do whatever to make her realised how grateful she MUST be!!
let her know how much others have sacrifised for her and she wasted on it!!
patience do have the limit!!

today didn't go to school...
feeling quite unwell....
but then when my boyfriend got to know about it, he thought of asking me out to watch a movie..
so i did...
hahas...
he skipped school just for me..
aww...
hahas...
early morning my friend msg me to ask for a help...
i wanted to wake up late around 9am, but end up talking on phone from 7am-10am...
haish...
wasted....
so ya..
we watched "the Simpsons Movie"
was kind of funny la... laugh non-stop...
hees...
we watched at Jurong Point...
and then around 6pm i went home as he have to go for soccer..
haish...
guys are just addicted to soccer huh?
haish...
then reached home, i ATE LOTS LOTS OF SUSHI!!
yay!!!
sushi gyrl for the day!!
wweeee....!!
i simply love sushi!!=)
the last few days was just a boring day for me..
nothing to report or say..
that's it! :p
just that i've been having "nightmares"....
it is haunting me...
but sometimes, somethings are best untold...
why must it came back when i'm happy with my life now..
happy with someone i love...
haish...

2007-07-22T19:00:00.000+08:00

well, people have been commenting that my entry previously have too many colours..
so for now all will be one colour...
however, if i feel happy or what, sorry ya..
i'm back to the colourful entry! hees...
super bored now!!
haish...
i was damn pissed in the morning with everything that had happened..
i slept 2am and i woke up at 7.30am...
so short hours huh?
never been like this before..
haish..
i called up my friend, shocking she was still sleeping!!
damn it!!
and she said that i told her yesterday that i dont want go!!
damn pissed sia!!
i remembered CLEARLY, i have said that i wasn't SURE YET!!
but what makes me pissed off is that i msg her so many times but never ONCE she replied!!
she's using my hp and my number ( prepaid) mind u...
but she told me that prepaid low..
when i say that not to give that number just anyhow cause it is my number still, she denied it and reacted as if it was hers!!
my gosh!!
so much for helping her!
and my hp contains her pix with her bf...
my gosh!!
damn pissed off sia!!
if my parents get to know this, i'm so getting myself into trouble..
she did this not ONCE but i dont know how many times already...
just dont get the message i did tried to inform her previously...
previously, she uses my product as hers and people thought she really did it..
what shey...
damn pissed u know...

so ya just now, i took bus also damn tired...
i felt like i wasn't stepping on the ground..
like floating...
haish...
poor me...
and then in my religious class, i felt as if at any time i can faint on the spot!
seriously...
i endure with pain arh throughout the 1hr...
haish...
i sat in front of my teacher and my eyes can just close anytime as the air-con was just below me...
haish..
the weather is just nice for sleeping...=)
i wanted to watch harry potter today...
but in the end was cancelled...
i couldn't take it arh..
in the end, i have to go market straight away from my school...
poor me...
no choice again...
so ya..
that's all..
now i feel so bored...
waiting for iqah to send me the NDP pictures from her camera and than i can upload it!!yay!!

8days have passed and still awaits with pain.............

2007-07-22T01:45:00.000+08:00

TOTALLY LOVE THIS PICTURE!! =)

KK..i know..i know... it has been while since i last blog..
one week is dued!! hahas...
have been busy lately...missing all those entry is it?? hehes..
well, nothing to update simply say...
well basically i just simply lead a boring life..
school on weekdays at RP and weekends either my private school or my religious school...
so what else can i say right?
but only today i didn't go to my private school as i wanted to go for the NDP preview..
anyway, thanks Iqah for giving that chance...
appreciate it alot!!
other than that, the NDP was quite ok..
i simply like some of the parts!!
hehes...
the fireworks everything was fun!!
the first ever NDP on a largest floating stage!!
yeah!!
but at first was kind of pissed off with one of the person sitting in front of us...
it was rainning...
so u know?
umbrellas up!
lol...
but the person in front of us, used the BIGGEST umbrella!!
we can't even see a thing damn it..
and then the umbrella nearly hit our eyes...
patience feeza..
but in the end NO MORE PATIENCE!!!
umbrellas wasnt allowed in the first place!
we have to use what we were given..
sorry.. i forgot the name of it..
haish..
so ya...
lucky after that no rain!!
hahas...
so, so far so gd...
the pictures that was uploading was only from my camera...
waiting from Iqah's side of the pictures..
hees..
but only some are uploaded..
the rest, are for my own memories!! =)
ouh ya!!
on friday my results of my blood test, came out..
i have to go through both injections...
haish...
scary!!
other than that, nothing much happen this week...
just that i got lecture on last monday because of a stupid reason!!
eerrgghh!!
then went home late at night...
got meeting...
other than that, on last thusday had a combined class with W35C...
i would not like to comment on it...
met iqah on thusday i think...
and then ate at Banquet...
haish...
boring!!
k then...
i need to grab some sleep!!
having school in the morning..
sian...
lucky i never go for the captains ball game tomorrow...
haish...
and then maybe meeting my boyfriend tomorrow...
haish...
it has been a week since i last met him...
so missing him..
hees...
Nytes people!!
i'll update again tmr!! see ya!!
ouh sorry... i met later afternoon..
it is already 2am in the morning now..
hahas..
i'm so dead!!

PS: sorry for the plain entry today...
tired and sleepy...
hees...

i have came across this quiz and this is my results...=)

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.

You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.

You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking

How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

2007-07-15T17:30:00.000+08:00

i have began to accept the reality of life.
the more i began to think about it, the more it would seem to be hard.
i have to learn to love the one who loves me than being hard on them.
everything happens for a reason.
and knowing you has made me happy.
i'm glad GOD has made me found YOU.
i know the happiest day was to be with you.
not only that, being with the one i love and the one who loves me are the BEST!
i began to realise that hurting can end with sweetness if i just let it go.
letting go can be hard.
guilt can arise.
but not letting go can make the people around me unhappy and be unfair to others.
being able to take such a huge risk can lead to a major consequences.
we have to be brave or else we would not lead to the life we want it to be.
be happy while you can.
be grateful for what you have.
opportunities only comes once.
u missed it, u'll regret it.
i'm just happy eventhough deep in me i'm suffering.
i guess it is time that i have to learn to leave out the responsibility that was never mine.
enjoy life while i'm still in a teenage life or i just have to regret it in future.
life is full of ups and downs.
when i'm down, i just wish i wasn't born.
but hey!
when i'm feeling so high, i wish i can just jump over the moon!
that's life.
no matter what, everyone has their own life SET.
accept it or just leave it and u're not going anywhere.
everyone has problems.
cheer up!
there's people out there who are worse than ur minority problems.
if hatred grew, just let it out and get it over and done with.
life is much better without hatred.
so guys!
love the people around you!
love ur enemies!hahas..
[if it works..hees..]
and u'll be happy with ur life!=)

so yarh..
a new changed in me..
i'm currently involved in the teenager organization team in An-Nur.
cool huh?!
well yarh...
i have to find time to really go for the meetings everything.
haish.
busy as usual..
in fact more busy...
tmr is my first meeting...
going be home late at night...
haish..
tiring week again ahead of me...
haish...
had my first 'teenager class' today.
was damn FUN!
the teacher is damn SPORTING and FUNNY.
hees..
ouh ya!
for those who still have my prepaid number, PLEASE PLEASE....
dont ever message me at that number!
DELETE the number!
it is now not with me...
it is with my friend...
she's in used now...
haish...
sacrifising it..
hopefully my boyfriend never message me there...
haish...

i miss u sayang..
hope u had fun at mini kelatan..
haish...
take care yarh!
haish...
msg me when u're back from malaysia...
thanks...

2007-07-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

just the way we want it, we get it...
weee...!!
so yarh..
today had fun with my boyfriend today..
hees...
i wasn't feeling to well actually during class...
had diarrhoea..
haish...
it was worse man...
i think because want to meet him..
lol...
always gets nervous when wanting to meet him...
haish...
so yarh..
in the end, still, i went to vivo city with him...
thought of watching Harry Potter today but it was fully booked...
haish..
so end up, we dont watch any...
so hang around at the rooftop with him...
he met his friend and gang everything but his friend look so weird..
haish..
hang around till like 4pm...
and then he told me to meet his brother!!
my gosh!!
i told u, i hardly breathe sia....
imagine that?
haish...
futhermore, not only that, meeting his 2nd brother, his sister-in-law and kids and also his younger brother...
haish..
thought of running away suddenly met his younger brother first...
damn it..
with the feeling of damn nervous, i walked as if i wasn't living in reality life...
haish...
then yarh..
his 2nd brother looks damn scary sia...
but his sister-in-law looks pretty..
hehes...
his younger brother, couldn't stop laughing..
he knows me before anyone does...
hahas...
damn it...
then off we walked n walked at vivo..
then around 5.15pm then go home...
so damn tired sia...
haish...
but overall quite sweet la...
hees....
ever since morning, everywhere i go, romantic songs everywhere..
hahas...
i told him and he says yarh...
lol...
he like it...
lol...
so yarh...
happy one month anniversary sayang...=)

k la...
gtg...
i'm having alot of hmwk...
my mandarin hmwk is really packed!
haish...
very tired!!
need some sleep soon...
haish....

anyway, iqah!!
watching HARRY POTTER!!!
this saturday kkkk??!!
please please....
i really wanna watch it!!
haish....
msg me anything k?

PS: my love story of blog is up...yay!!

2007-07-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

what should i say today?!
i had a chaotic day today...
a long day indeed...
damn tired and ya..tired...
hees...
what the heck am i talking about here?
hahas...
damn it...
guess i wasn't myself today...
hahas...
i was super early in class today...
i had my UT...
and yarh...
i got an A again for my MATHS!!
woohoo!!
so damn loving maths as i used to..
i always mentioned maths huh?
because the rest wasn't up to my standard...
ya...
found out my UT grade 2 for enterprise i gt a B...
a B mind u!!
i dont believe it!!
hahas....
not bad la...
so ya...
our 3rd meeting was at LT-W2...
gosh!!
it was chaotic!!
like what my faci have said : "is it wonderful how people react when they get a hold on to a mic...??"
hahas....
damn it sia!!
everyone was singing,making fools and do whatever that u might never want to believe it...
damn funny!!
even my faci couldn't tolerate our "childish" acts...
hahas...
imagine getting all around the room to get a mic that was working...
but seriously, the feeling was totally different in having to present on a stage...
next week will be more difficult as more and outside audience will be involved...
haish...
i think i would be absent sia..
hahas...
so yarh...
get a phone call by one of my closest peeps...
gosh!!
she was in deep trouble...
and soon it would be my turn...
haish...
hopefully i wouldn't end up like her sia...
haish...
scary....
sometimes i just wonder...
there's this 2person...A&B...
i wonder what's in their mind...
they looked at me so weird...
just dont tell me what i feel and what i see is true...
make it just that i'm thinking too much...
haish...
ouh yarh!!

FITRI!!!!!
I'M MISSING U DARLING!!
my sayang!! (PS: my bf gg to get jealous if he knows i call u syg also...hahas...sshhh...)
anyway, yarh..i know...
shasha know...
but we all dont know when...
haahs...
get what i mean??
hees...
thanks ya for flooding my tagboard!!
do that often and i love u more!!hahas..
anyway, i'm so missing ur cuteness la sis!!
ahahs...
let's all meet and celebrate yg menentu k?
so long shey!!
i'm going crazy soon without ur craziness..
the three crazy gyrls...
who are just up to no good...
hees....
love u!!
and yarh shasha!!
quick quick!!
i'm so missing you too!!
love u too darls!
my cuteness babies....hees...

sayang, i wouldn't leave u even if i have to...
not at this moment when i need u...
let's hope that nothing would happen...
let's hope we could just stay on even if they knew about it...
thanks sayang for being there for me...
thanks for the sacrifices u've made...=)
rmber what u've said: soccer VS girlfriend (me), which would u choose?hahas...
u've said, make sure u've mean it cause i never force u to do so.... :p
I LOVE YOU....
*2DAYS LEFT!!WWEEE.....!!*

2007-07-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

haish...
sian today in school...
i wanted to skip school...
but all were screwed up...
damn it...
if not i can meet my boyfriend already sia...
he happened to skip school today..
hahas...
forgotten to bring his ezlink...
hahas...
i really wonder, how can he have forgotten all about it huh?
hahas...
so ya...
i got scolding for thinking of skipping school...
and my bf got scolded for forgetting to bring his ezlink..
hahas..
poor couple in progress for the day...
hahas...
so ya...
stayed on throughout the day...
it is the same as me not being there..
i was chatting and smsing all the way...
i told them from the start about it...
and they just ignored me..
so i dont care lor...
i miss my classmates who just skipped class just now..
i'm quite close with them la..
i was like a cousin to them...
a big happy family!!
hahas...
but being the only malay in the group do feel awkward la..
haish...
but those whoo are with me just now, glad that i didn't go with the rest..
my faci were shocked that i didn't follow them...
hahas...
yaya...
i was titled as a bad student in class huh?!
haish...
and then end up i didn't meet my bf...
i went for a talk instead...
hahas...
met my pri sch friend..
brought her and friends to E5...
surprisingly i wasn't lost...
hees..
guess i know quite well in the school..
well, nothing much...
so easy to remember..
except for the CCC...
hees..

dont compare me with her!!
dont similize me and her!!
i'm not like her!!
u can't judge me like her!!
just when will i be able to lead my own life?!!
i can't be like her coz i dont want to lead a life like her that would lead me in regret!!
just why do u favour her more when u end up hurting urself because of her!!??
it is really unfair for me!!
just because u always caught me doing wrong things and she never did, u judge me this way?!
i want JUSTICE!!
it is so unfair sia!!
why must i suffer and let her be taken advantage of it!!
sia la!!
since young i've been enduring!!
since young i'm the one who have to endure the violence....
SINCE YOUNG MIND YOU!!
and noone ever believe what i've said!!
all u guys think was HER!! AND HER!!
and now, she is the one who is being unfaithful!!
damn it!
still blaming on me?
AAARRRGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sometimes, i really wonder....
why am i here?
why was born to lead this kind of life??
haish...

thx sayang for being there for me...=)
i love u...

and sorry iqah for troubling u...
anyway,i miss u so much!!
rmber k: my friends are the first priorities than my bf...
hees..

craving for CADBURY chocolate!!
craving for YAMI yogurt!!
craving for COOKIES AND CREAM ice cream!!
i want them all!!
if not, i want to go to somewhere that i would calm myself down..
beach??
hill??
haish..
missing those days...

countdown: 3days left!!=)

2007-07-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

++dilemma++
haish..
when will this problem be solved...??
i'm so stressed...
just what i should do now sia...
so damn f**king fedup sia!!
eerrgghh!
just what should i do to make this damn situation better?
does she knows that she has gone over for what she did?!
face up the music la sia!
dont put the blame ono others when u know u're in the wrong!
u think we all can just give into u?
can just tolerate u?
please la!!
who do u think u are?
damn it sia!
i simply HATE her!!
we all suffer because of her!!
she thinks she rules the whole think!
we're not ur follower!!
"be an eagle not a sheep"!!
u're just a plain sheep that is so stubborn and so UNREASONABLE!
why change because of someone who leads u to the wrong path?!
i guess u're just misleading urself and be the part of people who do wrong things and never be able to get away from it if u just WONT listen!!
doing things that u know it is forbidden!!
not letting know when they supposed to know!!
u know the consequences!!
a life will be at stake if they got to know u're doing things behind their back!
ur character affects the people around u!
may not be positive but the negative!
people listens to u,give in to u...
but do u??
NOT EVEN ONCE when u know u're in the wrong!!
i really wonder what makes u make the drastic change within less than a yr??!!
should i inform them how much u've had change and whether i should be truthful to them what u've done??
but i know, u sure inform them about my secret huh?!
JUST WHAT THE HECK U WANT?!
HOW U WANT ALL THIS TO END, DAMN IT!!??

PS:sorry for my harsh entry for the day..
i'm simply pissed off with my life now...
especially to her!!
damn it sia!!
i really can't lead an ordinary life that i used to sia..
please la people, please treasure what u have..
dont change for the worse because of someone u love
just because u're afraid that the person would leave u..
then that person aint worth it!!
we only live once!!
the people arond us are important!our family..
our parents who have brought us up...
their hardwork...
dont just ignore them just because u can make ur own money..
u found ur loved one...
be a daughter/son that ur parents would be proud of..!!
u think we are in this world to have fun?!
think again!!
let every mistakes be a learning point...
accept ur own mistakes!
dont blame others for ur own wrong doings!
be fair la...
stand up for ur own right and wrong...
just because u want to get what u want, u want to see others suffer?!
isn't that too much!!
we are all humans for God's sake!
we're here to go through the tests that was given by Him..
accept it la...
i'm simply pissed off!!
eerrrgghhh!!

once again...
i'm sorry...
but this have to let out..
i jus couldn't hold on to it sia!!
it has been years sia i've gone through pain!
and it has gotten worse seeing the people who i loved the most is being the one who have to suffer more than they should!
have a heart la!

countdown : 4days more....=)
loving him more each day..hees...
unexpectedly but it is the true....=)

**kk..iqah..next week k we go watch?i sacrifice for u this time round... but this sat i used ur name again can?hees...please.. seoul garden nye pasal k?hees...so sorry...but thanks!!**

2007-07-07T19:37:00.000+08:00

weee....!!!!
slurpee!!!
hees......
rythm huh??
i simply LOVE today...
went out with him just now..
walked walked all around town...
nothing better to do huh??
i was supposed to go home straight away but since we've never met for like a week already, sacrifice lor...
hees...
but went home around 5pm..
he also have to go Kallang met his brother as he wants to learn to ride a bike...
haish...
poor me, have to go home alone...
aiyo...
mandarin class was fine...
but need more practice...
was damn early for class today...
i think because it is raining...
haish...
other than that, nothing much la..
tomorrow have to accompany my mom go somewhere...
haish...
no rest day for me sia...
k la..
gtg...
bye...

MISSING MY PEEPS SO MUCH!!
AAARRRGGHHH!!

countdown to our 1month anniversary: 6 days Left!!=)
all planned out...weee....!!! :p

2007-07-06T14:20:00.000+08:00

didn't go school today...
hees...
play truant...
get scolded from my dad...
hees...
what to do...
haish...
i find it hard to wake up in the morning...
got scolded from my bf..
hees...
sorry!!
so ya..
yesterday i wasn't in any mood because i was distracted by the movie...
futhermore,there was a camera in class..
i was like "what the heck??"
i was stressed up shey with the camera...
it was recorded mind u!
if i knew i wouldn't come to school sia..
haish...
so ya...
my headache got worse yesterday..
haish..
but after that rushed to cwp..
met my brother and my dad...
both my cousins were late..
isk2...
i didn't went for the talk yesterday as i was damn late..
eileen was angry with me..
sorry!
haish..
so many times i have to say sorry huh?
isk2..
then off we go in the cinema!
i prayed hard so that i wont fall asleep..
and ya!
i was so engrossed with the show that i was wide awake!
lol...
it was a great show!
i want to watch it again sia...
haish..
but the ticket was quite expensive...
my brother go bankrupt i think..
hees...
once in awhile huh?
hees...
so ya...
went home quite late...
my dad went home first...
he have worked today..
my gosh!! i even had a dreamt about Transformers yesterday..
rabak shey!
hahas...
but overall is quite worth it la...
hees...
being the only girl watching yesterday,do feel the awkwardness sia...
but what to do...
hees...
then something happened yesterday...
at the interchange...
my cousin was in it..
poor him...
lol...
told my bf about it..
he's so damn jealous...
oppss...
hahas...
feeza so bad!:p

PS: i'm going to open up a blog of my love life soon! next sat... so ya... if u guys are interested,can just pm me or tag me ya!=) it will be private... but for those who wants, can view it..=)

k la..
till here...
i have to come up a decision on whether to meet him or not...
it has been a week sia since i last met him...
haish...=(

PEEPS!
i'm missing you guys too!
when wanna meet?
i dont want to be known as a friend that forget friends now that i'm attached ok?
anything msg me aites...
love ya!miss ya! =)

TRANSFORMERS! =))

TRANSFORMERS!! RATING :5stars! :p

2007-07-04T19:53:00.001+08:00

hey hey!!

i know i know...

it has been awhile since i last blog right?

sorry la..

have been busy lately..

hees...

well...let me roughly say what had happened the last few days k?

on sunday....

went to An-Nur Mosque to enrol myself to my religious school back again...

haish..

but sad to say me and CT forgotten that, that day was Youth Day...

as u know i'm in Poly now so dont really bother about that...LOL...

so ya..wasted our trip there..

waited for my mom as she got "class" there...hehes..

miss sia An-Nur peeps!

have to wait till next 2weeks...

sian arh...

and then me and CT went to eat while waiting for my mom...

gosh!!CT do have alot to say....

all the while i just kept quiet...

hearing her love story...

haish....

hahas...

but surprising to hear she said that "something"...

never knew we're in the same situation huh?

haish...

on monday....

wasn't in any mood for anything much...

had a problem with my guy...

told him about the matchmaking thingy that my parents have "joke" to me about...

never knew it would bring out such "disaster" to our relationship...

haish...

but settled already...

only that waiting for the broken heart to heal...

it takes time to heal of course...

haish...

but then i realised that my love for him gets deep...

only that...

i dreamt of someone...

why is it?!

just so you coming back when i finally move on...

it has been really so long sia...

haish...

so ya...

went home late that day...

maths module really makes me sian arh...

excel again...

haish...

but it turns to be fine!

hees...

maths my fav still!!

went home with my fren and the guys who bullied me...

got to know one of them had a family problem..

that explains his late coming in school...

haish...

never knew he had similar problem to me..

but he seems happy..

in fact the joker in class..

hehes...

on tuesday...

problem solving...

sian....

my attitude change that day...

i seem so happy as if nothing happen on monday..

haish...

simply so engrossed over my problem that day...

eventhough i didn't really contribute much...

hahas...

i was stressed up cause i was having a terrible headache and that i didn't get enough sleep...

haish...

all thanks to him...

enough of tears i shred on monday...

isk2...

went home late again...

have been going home late cause i simply lazy to go home...

insufficient rest ever since last monday...

what to do...

today.....

nothing much...

just that i was a bit slacking today...

i knew my grades gonna drop drastically...

was caught MSN-ing...

and smsing...

aiyo...

downgrade liao la...

other than that..

had fun!

hees...

nothing much to do huh?

was in a rush to finish my work...

my guy have soccer at SP...

so jealous...

wanted to go also...

but still got school...

sian arh..

if only i can go and watch them play...

haish...

tomorrow also he wants to follow...

die arh...

YAY!!

TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!

MY DAD TREATING US MOVIE!!

WEE!!!

TRANSFORMERS!

YEAH!

going with my cousins...

my mom not following so i'm the only gyrl...

sian arh...

sure get bullied...

lol...

but after school...

so must rush here and there...

suddenly i fall asleep during the show...

waliao!

hahas...

but still...

friday not going school!!

weeee....!!

yeaheh!!

it has been so long since my dad watch movie!!

cool!!=)

k la..

i'll stop here...

i dont know what else to say...

i seem to forget what i want to say...

hees...

take care peeps!!

love ya...

**i'm so missing my syg...hees...**

**this is what i felt on monday...**

2007-06-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

bees!!bees!!
loving bees so much!!
yeah!!
hahas...
kk...
the best thing ever happen to me is to get so damn close with a HUGE bee!!
hahas...
shouting like hell in the bus like nobody's business and dont even care what other people might think..
haish...
iqah was like so speechless and i was like crazy trying to get that idiotic bee out of my tudung aka scarf..
it was sticking like a glue sia!
then i saw my ezlink card on my hand,so i just rub it off...
hahas...
then i wondered,where's the bee??
iqah already left me there alone,so i went at the back of the bus...
while searching for that bee,i didn't realised it was stuck at my PANTS!
wonderful arh...??
me n iqah were like laughing and crying at the same time...
the rest of the passengers were like looking and not trying to help!
waliao!
and then i tried so hard to get that bee of my pants!
i screamed even more sia when i get to know it...
and sorry iqah,it fell off to u..
hahas..
didn't mean to.
hees...
my gosh!
and my pants were wet as my bubble tea spilled on me and i was like feeling cold all the way...
i dropped off at iqah's bus stop..
hahas...
phobia sia...
no more 901 bus for me!
hahas...
inform my bf about it,he laugh..
waliao...
bad bf huh?
hahas...
but i was happy that he accompany me to school today..hees...
got a chocolate cadbury from him!!
wee....!!
eerrmm..
kind of tired now...
i went cwp two times arh...
my mom want to exchange somethings..haish...
tomorrow i'm having a religious class...
confirm already...
so now,school everysingle day..
weekdays full-time student...
weekends part-time student...
so poor thing...
haish..
and ya shasha!!
sorry for not getting to accompany u today...
my mom is not happy with me going to bedok la..
so after class,i met iqah at orchard itself and went to amk hub...
just walk and walk till we went to cwp back again...
bought a sweater just now...
hees...
and yarh...
just now,it happened again...
wonder if it is fate??
my mom say it again and again...
what should i do??
haish...
i've to be truthful to one...
but then my parents is still not know about it...
haish...
confused...confused...
hmmm....

2007-06-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo!!
hahas...
i was supposed to do my mandarin hmwk today..
but kind of lazy...
thought of updating since i didn't get to update yesterday...
hees....
so i'll talk about today than about yesterday k?
hees...

today..another UT....Science...
gosh!!i couldn't explain how it is...
think gonna failed arh...
haish...so ya..
had my Health Screening just now...
gosh!!so long since i last had a needle poke on me!
hahas...the last time was Pri6...
isn't it?in fact i was afraid of needle..
hahas...so ya...
pain pain...so many blood they took..
isk2...
now have to wait for the results..
throughout i wasn't really pay attention...
left arm in pain..
hahas..
like numb...
hahas..my bf dont even pity me...
haish...again...
today was bullied by my classmate...
what the?!
poor me...
yesterday get bullied so bad...
i dont seem to know why people like to bully me..
haish...
ouh ya!
chat with him just now...
so sweet!
today is our 2weeks together...
he top up my prepaid for me...aww....
hahas...
told him not to,he already did...
alalala....=)

yesterday i met him...
after class straight away...
hahas..
met so many people at cwp and the library...
haish..
sway arh...
met with people i dont wish to meet...
met someone who nearly ruined my relationship with him...
haish...
really you know...
i was being trapped...
everywhere i go,i met people that i know..
met my aunties...
aiyoyo!!
hahas...
but the weird thing is that there's another match making..
guess who?
ME!!ya ME!!
my mom wants me to go to school with this guy who lives opposite me...
remember the one i told u about?
he's in year2...
hees...
shocking u know!
my parents really wants me go with him..lol...
the only think that i was thinking that time was my bf...
he's gonna get sad and jealous over it...hahas...
so ya...i was bullied still yesterday with the 2 malay guys in my class...
really!!
crazy arh...
but the strange thing is that both suddenly keep quiet upon knowing i'm attached...
was it just me or what?
hahas...
isk2...
but the other guy really spy on me today...
isk2...
weird guys!
hahas...
last but not least,i'm meeting my guy again this sat!
yeah!
congrats to him that he pass his exams with flying colours!=)
hahas...
aiyoyo!!

peeps!!
wanna catch a movie next month?!!
i wanna watch Harry Potter!!
msg me if u want k?!
i really want to go!
but bad news: i can only make it on wkends...sorry...=(
but i hope u guys dont mind!!

pada setiap perkara yang berlaku,pasti ada hikmahnya..namun bukan ini yang kuingini...
mengapa disaat ku ingin kecapi kebahagian,pasti ada halangan?
mengapa disaat kudpt melupakanmu,kamu hadir tanpa diduga,tanpa dipaksa?
apakah hikmah disebalik apa yang aku hadapi kini?
ku tidak rela...
Hanya pada Yang Esa ku memohon..
agar ku dapat melupakannya...
bina hidup baru disamping yang disygi kini...
ku harap perhubungan kita berpanjangan...
ku tidak peduli apa orang kata..
yang penting,cinta antara kita dibina dengan tulus dan jujur...
rupa tidak penting,hanya hati yang mulia ku mencari...=)

2007-06-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

have been so pissed for the past two days...
damn it arh..
i simply hate that classmate of mine!!
he's so bossy...
he's so proud of himself...
he's kind of disgusting also...
he's lame...
what else can i say?!
eerrgghh!!
yesterday i really shout at him....
damn it!
everyone was so shocked...
ruined my day..
ruined my image as the quiet gyrl...
haish...

so ya...
met iqah yesterday...
was supposed to meet noris but didn't...
nvrmd...
all busy with school now..
haish...
exams...tests,...
eerrmmm...
haish..
i gt lots to write u know...
but dont seem to remember what to write..lol...
i keep bumping into this RP guy who lives opposite my block...
weird....
every single day without failed u know..
today also..
my mom ask me to ask him go with me...
crazy!
then i'll be entitled as UNFAITHFUL GF huh?
lucky arh...
haish...

today was supposed to meet him...
but msg him,he was at Tampines...
alala....
nvrmd...
but the worse thing is that,my hp battery is flat...
honestly,today everything i do seems not right..
haish...
what the heck!

kk...
next month!!
Seoul Garden!
haish...
a deal ok?!
no more pressure on me k?
haish...
one by one ask me to treat them now that i'm taken huh?
but somehow somewhere,i suddenly think that i'm much better when i'm single.
especially when i'm with u guys...
haish...
just wondering if it is too fast...??
haish....

found out these quotes....::
The beauty of love lasts a life time, but what happens when the relationship is long distance? It's still the same only hundreds (if not thousands) of miles away. When you're in love it doesn't matter if your loved one is in the same city, state or even country. Love has no distance.

"First romance, first love, is something so special to all of us, both emotionally and physically, that it touches our lives and enriches them forever." Rosemary Rogers

"First love is dangerous only when it is also the last." Branislav Nusic

would my love for u last forever or it would just be a temporary?would those promises be empty promises or u'll accomplished it for me?are we meant to be together?i'll leave it to FATE...

LOVE develop upon frequent meets.........

2007-06-23T23:45:00.000+08:00

UPDATED AGAIN ON 24.06.07 for the 2nd time!!

yeah!!
today was the happiest moment of all!!
he's willing to sacrifice early in the morning just to send me to school...
coincidentally we both wear the same colour of clothes.!
hah!!
cool!!
but poor him...
he was yawning all the way..
serve him right for sleeping late yesterday night!
bad right feeza?
isk2...
so ya...
after that supposed to meet iqah but she was sick..
but lucky that shamira msg me saying wanting to meet me..
if not,he so poor thing,have to make another trip to school...
hahas...
so iqah,rest well aites!=)
it is ok la..=)
and to shamira, dont give up k?
there's still time left...
caiyo!=)
anything just beep me k?
and ya..
please make up ur mind...
and follow ur heart not ur mind..=)

so ya...
went to bugis after that...
i bought a bag...
and bought shamira her birthday present...
hope she likes it..=)
off we go to bedok because was told by iqah that there's bus there to east coast..
wanted to go east coast actually..
but didn't know how to go there...
hees...
msg my bf also he so blur..
haish...
my cousin,he never reply..
aiyo...
then end up me and shamira were hanging out at bedok...
haish...
bought some clothes there...
but it was quite funny la...
me and shamira were like walking all around bedok just for bubble tea..
hahas...
weird gyrls...
took 168 bus home to woodlands...
nice ride home that i nearly fall asleep u know!
hahas...
isk2...
damn tired arh...
not sure if tmr i can go mlysia with my relatives...
haish...

today class was alright...
i love it...
i suddenly am so focused in class...
maybe because he sent me to school...
hahas...
and ya!!
everywhere i go, i met RP students...
especially the guy from the opposite block of me...
always met him..
just now he's so gentlemen sia in the bus..
hahas...
kk...
my bf also gentlemen mahx...
isk2...
hees...

i have forgotten to update abt ytd...
ytd met iqah after my class...
i meant the talk i attended to..
haish...
i wasn't in any mood to do any presentation today so i slacked again in class..
haish...
throughout the talk, me and eileen keep talking non-stop..
laughing till the presenter saw us...
opppsss...
hahas..
well,in RP, in order to graduate,we need to obtain points and attend any talks..
so it is like being forced to u see...
and then i rushed to cwp...
haish...
off we went to eat at Banquet...
me and iqah just seem not to make up our mind to what we want to eat..
changed sits 3 times...
hahas...
then we ate western food...
when i heard iqah's story...
really am funny!!
hahas...
sorry iqah,i really have nothing to say throughout the week...
nothing much happened...
school reopen already mahx...
and then we realised that it was already 7++...
how time flies when we have so much to share huh?
lucky my mom never scold me for being nearly 45minutes late..
hahas...

every single day past by i can't stop thinking of YOU...
all the more i want to be with YOU...
"Past memories cast into the future and fate bring us together..."
is what he have told me...=)
sweet!
but...
"the deepest feeling always shows itself in silence..."
is what i thought...
haish...
those who knows what it means will get what i mean...

2007-06-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

my ouh my..
had my next UT just now..
i bet another failure..
haish...
this term onwards every tuesdays and thursdays are my UT days!!
gosh!!
can cry arh!!
haish...
worse of all,i dont feel quite well today...
nearly faint in class...
haish...
wonder what's wrong...
poor me...

well,today will be just a short entry only...
just to be remembered that today is the one week of my relationship with him!=)
met him just now!
so happy!!yippy!!
but he was late...
haish...
but throughout he's sweet la..
hahas...
only that i feel bad about something...
sorry...
haish...
thermore i have to go home early..
so it was like just an hour date..
haish..=(
but then met all the unwanted people at cwp...
as u know...
cwp is the most dangerous place of all..
hahas...
other than that...
nothing much...
kk...
gtg...
it is getting late now...
kind of pissed off actually...
haish...
have homework to do and have not prepared for tomorrow...
getting busy tomorrow...
hehes...
take care peeps!
loving u peeps always...
apart from "my one and only" la...
hehes....
missing everyone!!hahas...
muaacckkzzz!!=))

**i was told that your best friend are your spouse...haish...wonder who's my best friend??hmm...**

2007-06-20T12:45:00.000+08:00

yeah!
i'm back!
hees..
today will be a dull entry cause i'm in school...=(
have been busy with school and tired ever since monday..
monday also kind of moody...
haish...
had a short quarrel with him...
yaya..
i know we just started out...
but hey...
it hurts alot u know..
i can't explain the feelings..
all started up from him lor...
eventhough now we're ok back but the hurtful feelings is still there...
haish...
i really wonder why is it always i am the one who always have to feel hurt...
eerrmmm..
have been having nightmare also for the last few days..
in fact ever since my status changed..
haish..
poor me...

so ya!!
school have started..
sian arh...
worse of all, i couldn't sleep for the past few nights...
especially monday night after had quarrel with him...
then in school,wasn't in any mood to do anything that my classmate asked me what happened to me...
sure downgrade la..
poor me...
now then i realised i have to sacrifice alot now that my status is different..
poor me...
kk...drop the subject...
so today is my hatest module..
just the sight of my faci really pissed me off...
and he knows about it so purposedly makes me do most of the thing...
haish...

but hey!!
i got to know my other UT results..
hahas..
semi-passed...
my ouh my...
well,it is enterpise...
business...
haish...
now i know i'm not up to it..
but i was happy when i get to see an A in one of my grade!!
totally loving it!
it is the Maths module!!
hahas!!
u guys know i LOVE Maths right?
so ya!!
i'm so HAPPY!!
YEAH!!=)
happy ending for the day!=)

i really miss my friends shey now...
so long since i last meet them...
but then i can't as i'm quite too busy...
and futhermore i can't go home late..
so gonna miss my peeps!=(

ouh ya!iqah,dont worry,i've told that person my status..
after that,as i was expected,not even a single msg from that person...
haish...
so dont worry...

tomorrow is one week liao...=)
hope it really last long...=)
loving him so....hees...
i'm happy to be with the one i love...HIM!!=)

2007-06-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

i was just browsing the net when i found this...
not bad huh?
i've found quite alot...
but i would publish it one by one k?
hees...
so ya...
yesterday slept late...
as usual...
then woke up early in the morning...
followed my mom to Geylang..
hees...
well,rather than sitting at home so bored right?
hees...
my parents so the kecoh..
they want to eat at the Satay Club at Geylang..
but have not yet open..
aww...
hees...
so then my mom want to go to the wet market..so ya la...
i was attracted to the dikir barat performance!!
ouh man!
i feel like joining dikir back again...
but then i dont know if i can make it on the time...
hees...
the group is very spontaneous...
i like that..=)

well,nothing much i did today...
just that i watched this indonesia show, "Apa Artinya Cinta?"..
hees...
ok la...
Acha Septriasa played in the show...
after this,i think i'm going to prepare for school tomorrow!
damn it...
school starts...
on tuesday i've test,followed by thursday..
that would mean that for the next 3weeks,i'm having test...
haish...
so gonna miss my friends all...
poor me...

for those who knows my "secret",dont let it out kkz??
love u guys..=)

a group of dikir barat members performing at Geylang...=)
there are gyrls too aites...

i just love watching those dikir barat members..=)

he msg me just now morning...
so happy!!
surprises surprises!!
he have received the surprise that i gave him!=)
total loving it!
for the 2nd time,he was speechless...
awesome!
hahas...
tomorrow his birthday...
but can't meet him..
haish...
nevermind...
meet up with him soon enough!=)
but again,i still feel bad towards him...
damn it la..
just how should i bring up that thing to that person...?
i'm being too kind again huh?
what to do...??
haish...

2007-06-16T22:02:00.001+08:00

Artist: Akon
Title: Don't Matter

Konvict Konvict
Oh
Ohoohwooe
OoohOoohhwooe

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we'd last forever
I feel I'm hopin' and prayin'
Things between us gon' get better
Men steady comin' after you
Women steady comin' after me
Seem like everybody wanna go for self
And don't wanna respect boundaries
Tellin' you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secrets
I held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I'ma have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I been actin' lately
Has been off the wall
Especially toward you
Puttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything I been doin'
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't you
Ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Oh oh oh oh oh
Cause I got you
Cause I got you
Ooooh
Cause I got you babe
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

2007-06-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

well, 2days have passed...
and i'm happy with it..=)
but still,there seems to be a problem...
i'm officially with him but i'm smsing another person...
haish..
bad right?
i'm getting confused also...
if i meet the other one,he would get jealous..
but if i dont meet that other one,i can never get away with it..
why must both came at the same time huh?
poor me...
especially when both msg me at the same time...
i hardly know what to do sia...
the other person just couldn't stop msging me....
haish....

kk..whatever it is,i'm kind of happy today..
meet up with shasha!!
yeah2!!
miss her lots sia...
i thought i was late for class today,but end up i was very early..
hahas...
but then my hp can't stop from msging...
haish...
u know,i know,public dont know kk??
hahas...
then met up with shasha at dhoby ghaut...
she was like an hr late!!
damn hungry...:'(
isk2...
seriously,i really dont know where she's bringing me and what we're doing...
so just follow her but grabbed a bite at Plaza Singapura first...
went kfc..
hees...
me and shasha,just couldn't stop talking...
miss each other lots mahx...
she's still as crazy as ever!!
hahas..
glad that she is...
i totally love it..=)
but then sorry arh sis, my hp couldn't stop beeping la...
not my fault...
they msg me,not i msg them...
hees....
i msg one person but the replies are from different people...
so ya...walked in the rain was wonderful..
hees...
two cute gyrls shared with a pathetic small umbrella..
my umbrella have been shared with so many people sia..
so famous...
isk2...
walked till Somerset MRT..
and dearest shasha want eat Yami Yoghurt..
her favourites...
after that off we went to Bugis...
trying to find the Haji Lane was kind of cute...
walk and walk,take pix here and there...
i was kind of amazed with it sia...
i never thought those shops are so wonderful...
and ya!!
shasha!!
i want the pix the soonest can??
hehes...
after that shasha have to go boon lay..
haish...
then it strikes me that boon lay is near to lakeside...
and lakeside is where he lives...
eerrmm...
but end up i have to go home...
looking at the time and that my dad is at home..
no choice but to go home..
haish...
poor me...

PS:i seem to forget what i've been doing lately because i can't seem to focus what i'm doing!!this is so not FEEZA!!isk2...so shasha,if i've left out something please tell me..i dont seem to remember...hees...

YOU're the only ONE and will always be the ONE...=)
as our love story begins on 140607...
may it would last long with a happy ending...hees..

2007-06-14T19:30:00.000+08:00

ouh ya...
as i've promised,today is the day right??
hahas..
but sorry to say, i won't be updating what EXACTLY happened today....
only roughly,like our different stops....
and there wont be any much colours...
so be patience while reading k?
hees...

SATISFACTORY. STRESSED. GUILTY.
all combined into one....
haish...
i didn't get to sleep at all yesterday night...
worse of all somebody called me at MIDNIGHT!
what the heck?!
but seriously,yesterday i was busy smsing...
and out of the BLUE,somebody msg me!!!
and that somebody have not been msging for months...
till at night sia still msging...
just because that somebody just broken up in the relationship...
haish...
as usual,history of my life repeats itself...
eerrmmm....
so ya...
early in the morning about 6am, got scolding by my sister for not sleeping..
haish..
then remembered i've to wrap a birthday gift...
gosh!!then i realised there's not enough wrapping paper!!
damn it!!
tried to get some sleep after that...
woke up at 9am and went to vp after that..
haish...

at about 1.30pm met CT...
i was late as usual..
hees...
but then just get to know,CT has 4gtten her ezlink card!!
hahas...
very the tiring u know...
hahas...
so off we went to cwp...
have to beware as my parents were there too...
haish...
gosh!!
we reached same timing as that person!!
hahas...
i dragged CT off to one side...
i really couldn't take it...
i couldn't explain how was i feeling that time..
hahas...
but only for awhile after that then i realised,i've to get over and done with...

first stop at Cathay bought the tickets first..
yaya...
CT's guy was so damn happy when it is my treat...
hahas...
aimlessly we walked around cwp and then realised CT's guy is hungry..
off we went to LJS..
i really have trouble eating..
dont ask what is it..
hees...
back to the Cathay we went...
but something went wrong la...
there's tense for awhile...
manage to overcome it..
hees...
then i saw huiming and faisal...
gosh!!
miss all those secondary school days sia...
haish....
ask them about the chalet...
poor thing i can't go...
haish...

it was very damn cold in the cinema...
i can't keep still..
hees...
so ya...
for the 2nd time,i've watched Shrek3..
hehes...
but after that we went straight home...
aww....
met iqah in front of LJS...
ur wish is granted iqah...
dapat jugak jumpe...
hees...
and as usual,we couldn't stop teasing and having to the laughter..
haish iqah iqah...
btw,iqah....shhhh kk??
hees...
kk..
that's all for now....hees...

i've realised one thing...
we are better off friends than being more than that...
so iqah,not to worry k?
hees...
but i never expect that he's serious abt it...
and now i dont know what to answer...
haish...
he's not who i expected...
and iqah,i've tried but i end up asking so many questions...
out of topic to talk about jugak shey...
haish...
nevermind let time do the "job"...
hees...
just what i should say right now??
eerrmmm...

2007-06-12T18:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY.TERRIFIED.CONFUSED.
all combined into one...
haish....
the day gets nearer...
i was surprised yesterday...
i went SPEECHLESS yesterday when that someone ask me those questions...
gosh!!
it is getting serious...
haish...
i just dont know what else to say...
i message nearly everyone for advice...
but all i know is that all replies are the same...
CONFUSION...
haish...
so yarh...
just now went to school...
damn it, my laptop always gets into trouble...
haish...
but hey!!
for once, i went to school and it was damn QUIET!!
like walking on an empty and desserted places...
isk isk...
yesterday was it really a bad day??
gosh!!
i'm worried for both my friends...
i thought i was troubled,but i didn't realise my friends are troubled too..
haish...
cheer up my dears!!
anything just beep me...
i'll always be there for u!
i'll try to help whenever i can...
kk??!!
hees...
eerrmm...
nothing much to write arh today...
so ya..
i'll update on thursday kk??=))
hees...
tomorrow have to go library...
haish...
do homework...
but i got lots of DVDs to watch!!yeah!!
i bully my brother to buy all those DVDs...
so bad right feeza??
hees...
once in a while...
hahas..

2days encouting to our first "meeting"
6days encouting to that someone's birthday....
did i make the right choice??
should i give it a chance??
just what should i do/say??
it is really confusing...
i'm afraid but still......